On the mend.....
So it's Spring Break '06 for college students right now.... what am I doing? I'm still trying to get over mono from January. Come to find out, the IV antibiotics the FIRST hospital gave me wasn't enough to kill the strep throat, and it came back and turned into Scarlet Fever. I thought that crap was cured back in the pioneer days once penicillin was invented.... I just remember that all my kids on Orgeon Trail would die from it while out on the prarie. That, or cholera and dysteria. Still though.... I'm not on my second round of antibiotics to try and kill this. Once the scarlet fever is gone, my body will finally be able to fight the mono. So I'm still pretty sick, and very weak. How weak you might ask? Well, tonight my legs were doing their restless leg thing/ muscle spasms.... So I was stretching in my parents bedroom before taking a hot shower to relax my nerves. I'm about half way done when I flip over to start on my other leg, and BAM.... out like a light. My mom came back to find my completely sprawled out, on the floor in her room, no blanket or pillow.... passed out, with all the lights on. This is mono people.... where after simple stretching you need a 45 min. nap.
I'm jealous of all the people on Spring Break right now. Not that I'd want the drinking or anything like that.... but just to get out of Indiana and lay on a beach somewhere would be oh-so-grand.
So to go back to my sickness.... I've developed a partial eating disorder. I've lost, oh, about 35 lbs. since the beginning of this school year. My parents are really worried because I just look so frail. But with all the meds I'm on, I am really sick to my stomache all of the time. I barely eat because its uncomfortable when I do... and that's not helping me get any better. But its better than throwing up. So I'm hoping I step over this real soon, otherwise I'm going to end up back in the hospital again, for the forth freakin' time. Only this time, I'll be hooked up to a feeding tube and then sent to rehad. Not good. Not good at all.
Traci quit school. Commuting back and forth every other day wasn't working out for her, so now she works full time until next fall when we both start at IUPUI. I hope I'm better by then.... I guess I'll have to wait and see. That's really the clincher in whether or not I'll be able to go to summer school... By how I'm feeling. My endocrinologist said it could take several months up to a year before I'm feeling on top again. It makes me really depressed.... Sitting at home day in and day out.... I've cried a lot, but that's to be expected. Mono makes you depressed too.
I'm not going to lie, I just want to graduate. I'm enjoying my time off. My mom waits on me hand and foot, and she's been great through all of this. I def. wouldn't have made it without her. I mean, hearing about people who are studying for tests and worried about upcoming papers... I don't miss it. But I want my life to resume again. I've never been in a situation where there wasn't a quick fix. This is taking a lot longer than I anticipated, and I'm not the world's most patient person.
I miss my friends. :(
Ok, I'm going to go wear myself out again before I go to bed. Laters!
I'm jealous of all the people on Spring Break right now. Not that I'd want the drinking or anything like that.... but just to get out of Indiana and lay on a beach somewhere would be oh-so-grand.
So to go back to my sickness.... I've developed a partial eating disorder. I've lost, oh, about 35 lbs. since the beginning of this school year. My parents are really worried because I just look so frail. But with all the meds I'm on, I am really sick to my stomache all of the time. I barely eat because its uncomfortable when I do... and that's not helping me get any better. But its better than throwing up. So I'm hoping I step over this real soon, otherwise I'm going to end up back in the hospital again, for the forth freakin' time. Only this time, I'll be hooked up to a feeding tube and then sent to rehad. Not good. Not good at all.
Traci quit school. Commuting back and forth every other day wasn't working out for her, so now she works full time until next fall when we both start at IUPUI. I hope I'm better by then.... I guess I'll have to wait and see. That's really the clincher in whether or not I'll be able to go to summer school... By how I'm feeling. My endocrinologist said it could take several months up to a year before I'm feeling on top again. It makes me really depressed.... Sitting at home day in and day out.... I've cried a lot, but that's to be expected. Mono makes you depressed too.
I'm not going to lie, I just want to graduate. I'm enjoying my time off. My mom waits on me hand and foot, and she's been great through all of this. I def. wouldn't have made it without her. I mean, hearing about people who are studying for tests and worried about upcoming papers... I don't miss it. But I want my life to resume again. I've never been in a situation where there wasn't a quick fix. This is taking a lot longer than I anticipated, and I'm not the world's most patient person.
I miss my friends. :(
Ok, I'm going to go wear myself out again before I go to bed. Laters!