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I feel fucking ridiculous. Like...I was mistaken and it was just a horibble joke for everyone. UGh, I hate beng put out on display like that, for everyone to see and ridicule. I did this to myself really, I guess it comes with the territory of my gender. What is so fucking wrong with me? Honestly. All I know is that I'm not the type to go out of my way for shit. Fuck that, there's nothing to go out of my way for anyway. I feel so fucking stupid SO fucking stupid, and what's worse? I feel like a shitty friend. I can't stand mysef rigt now. Stop being a weak little fuck. I feel shallow as fuck when these words leave my mouth.
style ( P ) Pronunciation Key (stl)
n.
The way in which something is said, done, expressed, or performed: a style of speech and writing.
The combination of distinctive features of literary or artistic expression, execution, or performance characterizing a particular person, group, school, or era.
Sort; type: a style of furniture.
A quality of imagination and individuality expressed in one's actions and tastes: does things with style.
A comfortable and elegant mode of existence: living in style.
A mode of living: the style of the very rich.
but you aren't my style.
But I figure your interest in me is shallow at best, you think something completely different than what I actually am. I'm prety disgusted at the way I present myself, though I know no other way.
And I hate what I was told, if correct, I am found a lauging stock.
It's not that my world will fall apart, it's just that I know this will give me more incentive to forget all that nonesense and build on myself, which isnt a half bad plan, however, I'm unsure if I'm ready to let go of everything and other people and accept standing alone completely. I guess I just need to go through some cleansing. Who knows.
and another thing, i hate being yelled at over the phone when there is no real need for that sort of thing.
ahhhhhh I dont understand a damn thing, why i end up the places that I do or see the people that I see. It's all a massive blur. I think that I would like to soak in the tub and srub today right out of my skin.
style ( P ) Pronunciation Key (stl)
n.
The way in which something is said, done, expressed, or performed: a style of speech and writing.
The combination of distinctive features of literary or artistic expression, execution, or performance characterizing a particular person, group, school, or era.
Sort; type: a style of furniture.
A quality of imagination and individuality expressed in one's actions and tastes: does things with style.
A comfortable and elegant mode of existence: living in style.
A mode of living: the style of the very rich.
but you aren't my style.
But I figure your interest in me is shallow at best, you think something completely different than what I actually am. I'm prety disgusted at the way I present myself, though I know no other way.
And I hate what I was told, if correct, I am found a lauging stock.
It's not that my world will fall apart, it's just that I know this will give me more incentive to forget all that nonesense and build on myself, which isnt a half bad plan, however, I'm unsure if I'm ready to let go of everything and other people and accept standing alone completely. I guess I just need to go through some cleansing. Who knows.
and another thing, i hate being yelled at over the phone when there is no real need for that sort of thing.
ahhhhhh I dont understand a damn thing, why i end up the places that I do or see the people that I see. It's all a massive blur. I think that I would like to soak in the tub and srub today right out of my skin.