change of heart
so... yeah. so much has gone on since the last time i posted anything. God has been talking to me about ministry. still not sure where i'm going or what i'm doing, but i know it's not going to be in GA anywhere. i'll be graduatating in a month and i have so much to do. not only to get ready for graduation, but to prepare my heart to hear what god has for me. i know he'll tell me in due time.
today, i talked to pastor John about it. he gave me some good advise. i told him about possibily moving to chicago. and that God had shown me something about it a year ago. he said for me to wait. for those of you who know me, waiting can really be a hard thing for me. especially now. in someways everything seems to be falling into place like following a script, but in other my heart is breaking.
i want change, but right now change is really hurting. right now i know that sooner or later i'll have to give up everything i've ever known here. and possably some people i really love. yes these can be good things because god would never ask you to give up something unless he has something better in mind. but ya know, it can be really hard especially when it's not what you want. and it can be confusing like when you pray and you believe that god is saying yes to one desire of your heart and you want to make sure it's him. nit just pretty sure but 200% sure.
this is what i'm going through. these are the changes that are taking place. while i'm still yet a little anxious, i know God has it in his hands.
and kriss just so you know, whatever is hurting you right now will get better. and if it's about us... don't worry about it. you have a ministry to thing about. surely god has a plan in all of this. your calling has nothing to do with me or your future wife right now. god's calling requires your full attention right now. things will all workout for his greater good. i love you and i'm always praying for you. everything will be okay either way god calls us to go.
today, i talked to pastor John about it. he gave me some good advise. i told him about possibily moving to chicago. and that God had shown me something about it a year ago. he said for me to wait. for those of you who know me, waiting can really be a hard thing for me. especially now. in someways everything seems to be falling into place like following a script, but in other my heart is breaking.
i want change, but right now change is really hurting. right now i know that sooner or later i'll have to give up everything i've ever known here. and possably some people i really love. yes these can be good things because god would never ask you to give up something unless he has something better in mind. but ya know, it can be really hard especially when it's not what you want. and it can be confusing like when you pray and you believe that god is saying yes to one desire of your heart and you want to make sure it's him. nit just pretty sure but 200% sure.
this is what i'm going through. these are the changes that are taking place. while i'm still yet a little anxious, i know God has it in his hands.
and kriss just so you know, whatever is hurting you right now will get better. and if it's about us... don't worry about it. you have a ministry to thing about. surely god has a plan in all of this. your calling has nothing to do with me or your future wife right now. god's calling requires your full attention right now. things will all workout for his greater good. i love you and i'm always praying for you. everything will be okay either way god calls us to go.