wow...
the days seem to run together.friends that i haven't talk to in forever just poped back up into my life...which is an answer to prayer in away. i miss all of my friends that i haven't seen or talked too since i don't know when.
the topic is one that still hurts... alot. as much as i don't let people know what happend that springbreak...only few know. i feel like what was altamatly my decision, was a wrong one and that i've made anymore since.i feel like i've let quite a few people down because when it came down to it i didn't walk my talk.
why does this still hurt?! why is it that others can just walk away from everything and be ok with what it is now... why do i feel like i'm the only one in the world with this secet i've hide so well, that i still feel hurt over.
ok i just spilled out my blood and guts.
god,
i'm suppose to be happy now. but i'm not. i gave this all to you...but the pain is still there. and i know i screwed up... both with myself and with other people... i just want to know where this is going why i'm waking myself up crying at night because of this. i have no one to blame but myself in all of this.
please god, show me something. speak to me i want to feel you close again like i did in summer of 2002.
the topic is one that still hurts... alot. as much as i don't let people know what happend that springbreak...only few know. i feel like what was altamatly my decision, was a wrong one and that i've made anymore since.i feel like i've let quite a few people down because when it came down to it i didn't walk my talk.
why does this still hurt?! why is it that others can just walk away from everything and be ok with what it is now... why do i feel like i'm the only one in the world with this secet i've hide so well, that i still feel hurt over.
ok i just spilled out my blood and guts.
god,
i'm suppose to be happy now. but i'm not. i gave this all to you...but the pain is still there. and i know i screwed up... both with myself and with other people... i just want to know where this is going why i'm waking myself up crying at night because of this. i have no one to blame but myself in all of this.
please god, show me something. speak to me i want to feel you close again like i did in summer of 2002.