Your own personal toy...

[kisskissbbang]

So, let me make a post before I never get the chance to. I try to only get online when the baby is asleep. I'd rather spend time with her when she's awake, and possibly, get some things done while keeping a close eye on her, in her playing environment. Any other time I'm online is cause I'm on my ever so awesome, android.

So, a few things...

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[comic_heroine]

Well handy stuff for starters, I have a habit of friends-locking my entries. You can have it set up automatically in the settings. That way you can vent and talk about more things openly without having any strangers you don't know or don't want reading your personal entries. Speaking from personal experience of course. -Admittedly, I'm a privacy nut. My fiance is pretty good with respecting my space

[kisskissbbang]

I forgot to friends-lock this! My livejournal noobness is showing. >_The funny thing is that when I don't ask for help, I get offered help. When I need it, no one feels the need to offer anything. My step-father totally got in the way of something I was doing, only to leave it half-way done, with things in the wrong places, making me do it again. When my mother asked why this was like this...he made me seem like I was the idiot doing it wrong. The sense of entitlement most hispanic (cuban mostly) middle aged men have is frustrating

[comic_heroine]

no worries hon. I will send you a private message asking for your email then on LJ. No worries! :) It's a word doc with a cake recipe with different scratch icings, I'll add in a fantastic recipe for meatballs, and there's a great one for a cheddar cheese and bbq sauce meatloaf. Simple stuff! -The meatloaf is mixing it together, shape it, bake it, and throw a few potatoes in to bake. And don't worry if you can't think of anything to share back. I just really enjoy cooking, and a big believer in food bringing folks together. And another is a pizza recipe. It might entice him to show off throwing the dough in the air, like in the shops, or he may insist on putting the toppings on to his liking

[kisskissbbang]

Wow, you should be like a therapist or something. These are all excellent ideas that I wanna work into our relationship. He might even like the pizza idea. He loves when I try to put a meal together, and it comes out delicious, and then sees my excitement when he enjoys it. It's just so insane that he can get so overbearing, and then try to laugh with me an hour later. It's like he's bipolar or something. Some people have talked about it with him, but I'm afraid to bring it up. When he has sweet moments...they are extra sweet. But when he's angry...it's bad. Like scary bad. Not that he would harm me or the baby or anything, but his words hurt more than I think anything physical would. Maybe I'm a masochist? Maybe I need therapy? I dunno. I just hate that he makes me feel inadequate. I'm gonna try these things, and see if maybe bettering myself will motivate him to do the same

[comic_heroine]

Lol, I considered it at one point, being a psychologist, actually. haha.I hope you're able to work something out. Anger is frustrating, the trick is finding what's upsetting you and address it in a calm way. Exercise usually helps out with anger and stress. I still think getting even a little bit of me time will make a difference and make you feel a bit happier. I run to help me from getting too anxious.

But I'm glad FLOL has helped you out! :) I know there's not always the best people in different areas of any city, but there are those who've got some really big hearts. The trick is just finding them and giving them a chance. Kinda a follow your gut. :)

[kisskissbbang]

LOL, you would be great at it! I do some excersizes. I've lost 15 pounds of post-baby weight. It does help a lot. Especially walking or running.

FLOL does help out a lot. Everyone is so accepting there, and so kind hearted. <3 I definitely have to trust the people around me more though. This Dr. House complex is not making me happy, and it can get a bit lonely at times. I've just been hurt so many times, I try to distance myself, and run to FLOL where everything is so much better. I need to stop that. The not trusting people, not the running to FLOL. XD