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Maybe it is hard to see while I'm in the middle of so many changes, but I know I am growing as a person.. I have given up so many bad habits.. it's amazing. I am becoming a whole new me - and yes, that sometimes means I need to push everyone away for a while.. how am I supposed to change with all of the same energy all around me? I am diving into spectacularly new and beautiful, sparkling waters.. I am wide-eyed & amazed by every new thing I come across..
I am learning what it is to Fail. & what it is to get back up on my feet and push & shove my way through a disapproving crowd.
I am learning that I do not need a companion in life - though, I crave a partner in crime.. someone to learn from & to laugh with.. but that cannot be forced, I see. It must be found spontaneously. & if I could just stop screwing up, maybe somebody really great will come along & admire my ways.
I am learning what it is to Fail. & what it is to get back up on my feet and push & shove my way through a disapproving crowd.
I am learning that I do not need a companion in life - though, I crave a partner in crime.. someone to learn from & to laugh with.. but that cannot be forced, I see. It must be found spontaneously. & if I could just stop screwing up, maybe somebody really great will come along & admire my ways.