hear me out.
hey everyone!!!!
im back on here again.. myspace is boring. lol. it gets old.
im worried about alot of things.
i have so much crud on my plate right now.
i might be losing yet.. another friend im tryin to help her out and all my advice is gettin wasted away.
i thought i was a heavy drinker. i guess not.
ive been sober for almost a month now. drinkin in stupid. i hate it.
and other substances. um...
i have new pics up on myspace im wicked thrilled i finally figured it out. cuz my comp is an imac so things work differently.
um.. im kinda in a sad mood. ive been for awhile. im hurt by words that were spoken to me.
i just cant eat or sleep or even talk.
i get shaky when i read that comment again.
idk. he knows i dont like him like that way anymore.
i ment another guy but things got twisted. im in the bad i guess.
i want a bf but i keep having them then we break up lol. i just cant find the right person.
i did then it ended just like that.
he never knew whut i felt inside. i was afraid of the next step. ive been hurt badly. and i didnt wanna get hurt again.
i mean i never had so much fun in my life.
i loved it. the reason y i ended it was cuz i didnt want him to figure me out. and leave me right when i found love.
idk i need to speak my heart out since no one wants to hear me out.
all my friends are tellin me things are fine. they are wrong. i kno whut i feel.
i belive that im gonna be hurt by this for awhile.
i just think thing are wrong with me that im not perfect.
whut am i?
ugly?
fat?
annoying?
to self concesious?
not right?
gross?
and more....
i try everyday to be perfect, not eat, excerise, drink water, cry lol,
and nuthin works, i havent smiled since august. and all my friends think im crazy LOL.
they dont kno me.
no one does.
it bothers me that someone so cool can just turn in a matter of seconds and i didnt do anything.
and i get bitched at. idk..
well im gonna go to bed and call my friend.....
ill writw back soo<3
comment my new pics<3 its the only thing that makes me happy LOL
im still upset about that UGH!!!
xxx
♥ melissa<3
im back on here again.. myspace is boring. lol. it gets old.
im worried about alot of things.
i have so much crud on my plate right now.
i might be losing yet.. another friend im tryin to help her out and all my advice is gettin wasted away.
i thought i was a heavy drinker. i guess not.
ive been sober for almost a month now. drinkin in stupid. i hate it.
and other substances. um...
i have new pics up on myspace im wicked thrilled i finally figured it out. cuz my comp is an imac so things work differently.
um.. im kinda in a sad mood. ive been for awhile. im hurt by words that were spoken to me.
i just cant eat or sleep or even talk.
i get shaky when i read that comment again.
idk. he knows i dont like him like that way anymore.
i ment another guy but things got twisted. im in the bad i guess.
i want a bf but i keep having them then we break up lol. i just cant find the right person.
i did then it ended just like that.
he never knew whut i felt inside. i was afraid of the next step. ive been hurt badly. and i didnt wanna get hurt again.
i mean i never had so much fun in my life.
i loved it. the reason y i ended it was cuz i didnt want him to figure me out. and leave me right when i found love.
idk i need to speak my heart out since no one wants to hear me out.
all my friends are tellin me things are fine. they are wrong. i kno whut i feel.
i belive that im gonna be hurt by this for awhile.
i just think thing are wrong with me that im not perfect.
whut am i?
ugly?
fat?
annoying?
to self concesious?
not right?
gross?
and more....
i try everyday to be perfect, not eat, excerise, drink water, cry lol,
and nuthin works, i havent smiled since august. and all my friends think im crazy LOL.
they dont kno me.
no one does.
it bothers me that someone so cool can just turn in a matter of seconds and i didnt do anything.
and i get bitched at. idk..
well im gonna go to bed and call my friend.....
ill writw back soo<3
comment my new pics<3 its the only thing that makes me happy LOL
im still upset about that UGH!!!
xxx
♥ melissa<3