words of wisdom from a good friend
i have a good friend, who councils me at times, and i'm surprised that he actually cares, but i love that he does. we get along great, as much as we can over aim. honestly, i can't wait till we get to just hang out, no shows, no dumb crap, just him cooking me korean food. yes! He seriously knows me so well already, sometimes it makes me upset. But its wonderful to have someone who doesn't totally know my past, but knows my personality well enough, and is outside my regular circle of friends to give me advice. I like his honesty, and am lucky to have become friends.
anyway, my feelings and emotions are kind of everywhere lately. one person i have a small crush on, is no longer responding to me. the other that i was beginning to feel ok having actual feelings for has cut things off, and i'm not even upset towards him, just hoping he gets his feelings together. and the last, well, out of nowhere he's stepped back in. i just dont know what to do, and i'm afraid to do something drastic, in such a state, and have it become a disaster. i need to not focus on romances, and realize that I've got other things going on, and there's a lot about myself I need to get a grip on, especially before I can really give myself to someone. and that's ok, and if something happens while I'm working myself, then that's ok, too. I'm not cutting out the idea of a romance, but shifting my focus.
I'm moving back to Seattle for the summer, at least. I'll be working back in Ballard, and saving up some money. It will be a summer of good friends everywhere, relaxing, exercising, and just enjoying what I have. I'll be able to decide to return to school in the fall, move again somewhere, or just stay put. I want to start up a bible study with my close friends, since we all pretty much go to the same church. That's what I need more than just romance, I need to re-focus my attention on the Lord, and let him send me in the right direction. Obviously Philly isn't the place for me, but He used it to bring me closer to Him, which I couldn't ever be more thankful for. I'm excited to go back to the city, and see how I can hold up.
Right now I'm starving, waiting for Laura. And I've been listening to my iTunes, just straight through, alphabetically by artist, searching for good lounging music. But i always get too many ideas of what type of lounging music I want. Ha. This weekend is full of Emery. What a nice thing to come home to.
anyway, my feelings and emotions are kind of everywhere lately. one person i have a small crush on, is no longer responding to me. the other that i was beginning to feel ok having actual feelings for has cut things off, and i'm not even upset towards him, just hoping he gets his feelings together. and the last, well, out of nowhere he's stepped back in. i just dont know what to do, and i'm afraid to do something drastic, in such a state, and have it become a disaster. i need to not focus on romances, and realize that I've got other things going on, and there's a lot about myself I need to get a grip on, especially before I can really give myself to someone. and that's ok, and if something happens while I'm working myself, then that's ok, too. I'm not cutting out the idea of a romance, but shifting my focus.
I'm moving back to Seattle for the summer, at least. I'll be working back in Ballard, and saving up some money. It will be a summer of good friends everywhere, relaxing, exercising, and just enjoying what I have. I'll be able to decide to return to school in the fall, move again somewhere, or just stay put. I want to start up a bible study with my close friends, since we all pretty much go to the same church. That's what I need more than just romance, I need to re-focus my attention on the Lord, and let him send me in the right direction. Obviously Philly isn't the place for me, but He used it to bring me closer to Him, which I couldn't ever be more thankful for. I'm excited to go back to the city, and see how I can hold up.
Right now I'm starving, waiting for Laura. And I've been listening to my iTunes, just straight through, alphabetically by artist, searching for good lounging music. But i always get too many ideas of what type of lounging music I want. Ha. This weekend is full of Emery. What a nice thing to come home to.