phew its been awhile

[kiss_this007]

wow its been awhile. Im SO bad at updating this these days. so much has happened in the last few weeks. but i dont even wanna spend that much time on it lol

my OTHER softball season is over now...we only lost like 3 games out of 15 or something like that. I had fun playing with them. I was with alot of my best friends and it wasnt as serious as

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hey hey

[anonymous]

Hey Boo, yea this is Bee... i guess you kinda figured that considering i'm the only one who calls you Boo... wel i think and hope.. lol jk... well i'm not the one you really wanted to comment, but i'm going to anyways... or maybe i shoudlnt... who knos... but i'm gunna anyways... i'm glad you had fun this weekend... i kno i did, i wish we could go back to friday or saturday and relive it all, but as i was layin in bed last night i was just thinking about how much i missed you and how i wanted to go back and relive this past weekend... but then i got to thinking... wait, no really i dont.. i dont wanna go back to this weekend, with as great as it was, i dont wanna relive it... i wanna make new memories... i dont wanna relive the same one over and over, i mean think about it, we are going to have so many more good memories to add to the collection.. so why go back to the past and just relive the old memories.. good but old.. ya kno what i mean? we have so much to look forward to together so why relive one weekend when we are going to have so many more weekends together? but i loved this weekend, thank you so much for driving all the way out here to be with me...

i wish i could take the pain away... ya kno the missing pain of Nicole... i kno you really miss her and i kno how much you really cared about her... i dont really feel at liberty to say too much here and ive honestly prolly said too much... but as much as i wish i was more like her, as much as i envy her and things like that... i cant be.. really i cant, and i guess in a sense i'm jealous of her, and i dunno... ive said it before, but honestly i wish i was more like her, but then again i'm me and this is what we are both stuck with... i'm sorry for everything, i wish i could somehow get your mind off the pain or something...

i must go tho... i'm sorry, and i love you very very much
Bee