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you guys want jessica so fucking bad. have her.
you want all my friends so fucking bad. you can have them too.
and i will have no one.
i am meant to be alone or just meant to have friends that give a fuck about not hurting me. sometimes i want to get out of miami so fucking bad. i love miami and i love my family. sadly, i hate my fucking friends. don't fucking tell me that i need to grow up. i'm not fucking ten years old. i can be upset about whatever i want to fucking be upset about. end of story. i am so pissed. i just wrote fucking too many times.
i need to have sex and get this shit off of my mind.
i need to go the beach and clear my head. i keep thinking about all this and it makes me want to stab myself ... in the heart.
i am being an emo bitch.
maybe i will be like jordanna and leave shit behind. just move somewhere and be done.
i want to have a city named after me. i want to be the next fiona apple. i can write about my stupid life and make it seem like all this shit really matters.
its crazy how you know a big time panic attack slash breakdown is coming and there is no way for you to stop it. you just have to wait around for it and then be done.
you want all my friends so fucking bad. you can have them too.
and i will have no one.
i am meant to be alone or just meant to have friends that give a fuck about not hurting me. sometimes i want to get out of miami so fucking bad. i love miami and i love my family. sadly, i hate my fucking friends. don't fucking tell me that i need to grow up. i'm not fucking ten years old. i can be upset about whatever i want to fucking be upset about. end of story. i am so pissed. i just wrote fucking too many times.
i need to have sex and get this shit off of my mind.
i need to go the beach and clear my head. i keep thinking about all this and it makes me want to stab myself ... in the heart.
i am being an emo bitch.
maybe i will be like jordanna and leave shit behind. just move somewhere and be done.
i want to have a city named after me. i want to be the next fiona apple. i can write about my stupid life and make it seem like all this shit really matters.
its crazy how you know a big time panic attack slash breakdown is coming and there is no way for you to stop it. you just have to wait around for it and then be done.