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most days i am ok with friends
sometimes i love my friends
sometimes i hate them
i want to rid myself of this little fucking devil in my head
i want my mom to be ok again
i want to talk to my grandmother again
i have so much to look forward to and i think about the most retarded things all the time
i am an aunt with a beautiful niece. it sucks that she was born into insanity. i want to hold her and tell her that the world is pretty fucking shitty but there will always be stars in the sky and that whenever you can't seem to stop crying they are there for you to look at and doing so will always calm you down because there is so much out there. it is never to late for you to say goodbye to the shit that is bringing you down and make something better for yourself because everyone deserves better than what they have. as long as you can look yourself in the mirror and know that you are a good person, you will do fine.
today is the first day of the rest of my life
i am not going to speak to seth ever again EVER. not in this life and not in the next. as long as there are coherent thoughts in my head, i will regret speaking to him, caring about him and fucking him. he is a worthless piece of shit who does not deserve me. not that i am like hot shit or anything but im too good to have someone treat me like shit all the time.
i have no more tears for everyone else. i save them for my family and the friends that i hate when i was 10. the friends that i couldn't do anything without. we are all in different places in our lives and we all grew into different ppl but those friends are real friends because our friendships were pure and not full of fucking each other over and making each other feel like shit. they will always understand me and i love them like sisters
sometimes i love my friends
sometimes i hate them
i want to rid myself of this little fucking devil in my head
i want my mom to be ok again
i want to talk to my grandmother again
i have so much to look forward to and i think about the most retarded things all the time
i am an aunt with a beautiful niece. it sucks that she was born into insanity. i want to hold her and tell her that the world is pretty fucking shitty but there will always be stars in the sky and that whenever you can't seem to stop crying they are there for you to look at and doing so will always calm you down because there is so much out there. it is never to late for you to say goodbye to the shit that is bringing you down and make something better for yourself because everyone deserves better than what they have. as long as you can look yourself in the mirror and know that you are a good person, you will do fine.
today is the first day of the rest of my life
i am not going to speak to seth ever again EVER. not in this life and not in the next. as long as there are coherent thoughts in my head, i will regret speaking to him, caring about him and fucking him. he is a worthless piece of shit who does not deserve me. not that i am like hot shit or anything but im too good to have someone treat me like shit all the time.
i have no more tears for everyone else. i save them for my family and the friends that i hate when i was 10. the friends that i couldn't do anything without. we are all in different places in our lives and we all grew into different ppl but those friends are real friends because our friendships were pure and not full of fucking each other over and making each other feel like shit. they will always understand me and i love them like sisters