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the weird things in life. i swore off livejournal over a year ago because i hated amanda. i don't hate amanda anymore. sometime i hate amanda again. sometimes i hate myself. right now i'm feeling ok about everyone. i eat too much. i miss smelling my grandmother. it was a beautiful smell. like happiness and the good parts of my childhood. i miss my mom. she doesn't talk anymore. she just sits around and cries. i want my family back the way it wa before everything broke.
i wonder how arlen mitrani is doing. i have random thoughts about him and all the other ppl that i stopped talking to after middle school. those friends were real friends. friendship in pure form.
i do stupid things. i fall for the wrong persons. that sounds really weird. i think its correct though. i think i hate seth because he doesn't love me. he is supposed to love me.
what am i going to do with my life? i graduate in a year. i need to get my shit together. i just turned 20. i am young. i don't want to live in the real world yet.
i wonder how arlen mitrani is doing. i have random thoughts about him and all the other ppl that i stopped talking to after middle school. those friends were real friends. friendship in pure form.
i do stupid things. i fall for the wrong persons. that sounds really weird. i think its correct though. i think i hate seth because he doesn't love me. he is supposed to love me.
what am i going to do with my life? i graduate in a year. i need to get my shit together. i just turned 20. i am young. i don't want to live in the real world yet.