Realization
I realized today that I actually do hate life.
My boss made some offhanded comment, and the correct answer was "haha yeah life sucks", and instead I answered, "actually yes, that's why I play World of Warcraft all the time!"
And I laughed of course, but I'm in that kind of mood today.
I really do hate life. I hate the way it works, I hate the way that you treat each other, and I hate that I have to do a bunch of stupid meaningless !@^?$ in order to progress beyond this life.
I think that this is all coming out right now because I got a job offer from a guy I used to work for. I like working for him, and his compensation offer is outstanding, but I don't want to move back to Winnemucca. That is, if I were single and without kids, I would prefer to live on the street than move back to Winnemucca.
I do not like change. I do not like decision making. I particularly do not like being forced into something that I do not like, and I feel like I need to move, but I just don't see how we can right now, without a lot of help. And supposedly we're going to hear something within the next few days about the disposition of the house.
HAHAHAH yeah, I know, we won't hear anything, certainly not in time for me to make this decision with that information in mind.
In conclusion, I've started working on The Bomb again.
My boss made some offhanded comment, and the correct answer was "haha yeah life sucks", and instead I answered, "actually yes, that's why I play World of Warcraft all the time!"
And I laughed of course, but I'm in that kind of mood today.
I really do hate life. I hate the way it works, I hate the way that you treat each other, and I hate that I have to do a bunch of stupid meaningless !@^?$ in order to progress beyond this life.
I think that this is all coming out right now because I got a job offer from a guy I used to work for. I like working for him, and his compensation offer is outstanding, but I don't want to move back to Winnemucca. That is, if I were single and without kids, I would prefer to live on the street than move back to Winnemucca.
I do not like change. I do not like decision making. I particularly do not like being forced into something that I do not like, and I feel like I need to move, but I just don't see how we can right now, without a lot of help. And supposedly we're going to hear something within the next few days about the disposition of the house.
HAHAHAH yeah, I know, we won't hear anything, certainly not in time for me to make this decision with that information in mind.
In conclusion, I've started working on The Bomb again.