Grief
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/02/27/AR2009022701549.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWJ3qzk5kHo&feature=channel
(so there is no confusion, neither of those links have the least to do with me, other than they are by people who's stuff I follow ... but they affected me the last few days.)
I miss my baby brother so fucking much.
(also, the following two quotes have too much meaning to me.)
Humans, Hickling said, have a fundamental need to create and maintain a narrative for their lives in which the universe is not implacable and heartless, that terrible things do not happen at random, and that catastrophe can be avoided if you are vigilant and responsible.
... and ...
"I feel guilty about everyone in church talking about how blessed we all are. I don't feel blessed anymore. I feel I have been wronged by God. And that I have wronged God. And I don't know how to deal with that."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWJ3qzk5kHo&feature=channel
(so there is no confusion, neither of those links have the least to do with me, other than they are by people who's stuff I follow ... but they affected me the last few days.)
I miss my baby brother so fucking much.
(also, the following two quotes have too much meaning to me.)
Humans, Hickling said, have a fundamental need to create and maintain a narrative for their lives in which the universe is not implacable and heartless, that terrible things do not happen at random, and that catastrophe can be avoided if you are vigilant and responsible.
... and ...
"I feel guilty about everyone in church talking about how blessed we all are. I don't feel blessed anymore. I feel I have been wronged by God. And that I have wronged God. And I don't know how to deal with that."