I FOUND IT.
I just... I just fucking found it, you guys. This literally made me jump out of my seat. I fucking found it. Sorry for the swearing. But... like, this is it.
For so long, I've been trying to find out why in the hell Jake would want to stay with Leah, especially within the scope of Into the Sun. It just didn't make that much sense to me, but I knew that he wanted to be with her and I guess I kind of wrote it off as him wanting to fix her or something, but I knew that it wasn't that. I was searching for his motivation, and I just didn't get it, but I fucking found it.
This guy, Chris Gutierrez is one of my absolute favorite bloggers, and one of my absolute favorite people in the world. This is an excerpt from one of his posts.
" i said, "i just wanted to believe in someone that everyone else had given up on."
and that was the absolute truth. but if you havent been there, then you dont know. its not a "project" to believe in someone and yes, some of us do actually find love within the tortured throw-away artists and not all of us are out to "save someone". some of us find a spark, a light and a brilliance in another person that outshine all the dull and boring who came before them. sometimes that person is rational and sane... sometimes not.
and while we cant control what we find attractive, we can at least be aware of our surroundings. yes, i will fully admit that i was taken advantage of. because i believed that one day my feelings would be reciprocated. that one day she would look at me how i looked at her. and that one day, i would have the opportunity to see her become the resilient woman that no one believed she could ever be. "
the rest is here
I think reading that has given me a different understanding of Jake. I might just be able to finish this story, after all. Augh, what a relief
For so long, I've been trying to find out why in the hell Jake would want to stay with Leah, especially within the scope of Into the Sun. It just didn't make that much sense to me, but I knew that he wanted to be with her and I guess I kind of wrote it off as him wanting to fix her or something, but I knew that it wasn't that. I was searching for his motivation, and I just didn't get it, but I fucking found it.
This guy, Chris Gutierrez is one of my absolute favorite bloggers, and one of my absolute favorite people in the world. This is an excerpt from one of his posts.
" i said, "i just wanted to believe in someone that everyone else had given up on."
and that was the absolute truth. but if you havent been there, then you dont know. its not a "project" to believe in someone and yes, some of us do actually find love within the tortured throw-away artists and not all of us are out to "save someone". some of us find a spark, a light and a brilliance in another person that outshine all the dull and boring who came before them. sometimes that person is rational and sane... sometimes not.
and while we cant control what we find attractive, we can at least be aware of our surroundings. yes, i will fully admit that i was taken advantage of. because i believed that one day my feelings would be reciprocated. that one day she would look at me how i looked at her. and that one day, i would have the opportunity to see her become the resilient woman that no one believed she could ever be. "
the rest is here
I think reading that has given me a different understanding of Jake. I might just be able to finish this story, after all. Augh, what a relief