Feeling private
Lately I've been feeling more and more disconnected from everyone and stuff. A lot of it has to do with my divorce, I am sure. But some of it is because lately when I've needed hugs and support, I haven't felt it so much from folks I expected it from. Folks I know who are about an aweful lot. Folks who I've tried to hug or blanky whenever they've had something rough to go through - when I've seen it. I know I am not the greatest about posting, thats because I am not the greatest about clicking my links as reg as others. But I do go back and hug or pat backs as I can. Sometimes I do it in game when its been a while since the post was old before I saw it.
Anyways, as I go through this very rough patch and feel very raw, I find myself questioning who I have listed as friend. So if suddenly you can't see the private posts, its because I am honestly not sure if you are there because you want to be my friend or if because at one time I was a 'fun person' and not so much now. Feel free to talk to me if you want back in, we can address expectations. Perhaps I should lower mine - it is reasonable sometimes. Sometimes we get too caught up in our own expectations/self pity that we miss what others are going through. And I am certain I am just as guilty.
I harbor no ill will to anyone removed. I've just always been a private person and wish to remain that way.
*hugs and blankies*
Anyways, as I go through this very rough patch and feel very raw, I find myself questioning who I have listed as friend. So if suddenly you can't see the private posts, its because I am honestly not sure if you are there because you want to be my friend or if because at one time I was a 'fun person' and not so much now. Feel free to talk to me if you want back in, we can address expectations. Perhaps I should lower mine - it is reasonable sometimes. Sometimes we get too caught up in our own expectations/self pity that we miss what others are going through. And I am certain I am just as guilty.
I harbor no ill will to anyone removed. I've just always been a private person and wish to remain that way.
*hugs and blankies*