Run for Cover
I just wanna apologize to how I acted towards my mother. I am sorry. I know you don't deserve this kind of treatment, but Ma, you shouldn't be here in the first place anyway. I know I am sometimes overboard with how I treat you and that I am not the best daughter you could ask for...I know I have a lot of misgivings and I am maybe a disappointment to you but Ma, I'm not the kid you used to know anymore. I'm not the clingy person I was before nor was I the vulnerable, defenseless child that you, Tiger Mom, could just bully. I am not like that anymore. I've changed. See. I've grown to be an independent and selfish and detached person that had a lot of wall surrounded the very core of my person. I know it hurts you but really, I don't like it when you just pop into my life and step through the boundaries I have set. I am private now. And a very big loner. I don't like it when people come around in my life only to push me away. Please. Get out of my life and stop coming into my room. I am old enough to make my decisions and live alone and depend only on myself. Let me learn from my mistakes. I need this badly because all my life I am looking for satisfaction and approval that will make me feel better. I want to be the best person that I can be. And I wanna face my demons and settle my insecurities before I come back and make our family better.
I really did hate you once.
But I love you too much to hate you.