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So. Sorry I haven't been updating very much lately. But as you can understand, I've been very busy with station life and....
Oh, who am I kidding? Mostly I've been sitting around staring at the walls, trying to evaluate how exactly my life came to this point. When I was a child, I never imagined I would have the power to change Bajor, and as a fighter, I never imagined we'd ever see the end of the Occupation. Through it all, the one thing I did believe in was the Prophets.
And now I have both the power and the opportunity to do something really great for Bajor, except, of course no one is listening to me because I've been attainted. And part of me is very hurt, but the other part says, you know what, I shouldn't sit around feeling sorry for myself. This isn't what Ben would want me to do, and it's not what I normally do. It's not the Kira clan way.
I got up yesterday to do Ezri and Bashir's wedding, which I hadn't studied for in the slightest. I managed to mumble through, although now I'm feeling kind of guilty for not giving it my all. Again, it's this sitting around that bugs me. However, I did get to see baby Benjamin, and I hate to mention this...but...I don't think that baby has any Trill in him at all. No spots. His hair is brownish and curly, not dark.
Miles and Keiko were lovely, as always, but they didn't seem to spend too much time with me. They all left to go do some rituals. Must be a Trill thing, unless Ben skipped those during his wedding. Maybe I should ask Kasidy, if she'll talk to me.
Oh, who am I kidding? Mostly I've been sitting around staring at the walls, trying to evaluate how exactly my life came to this point. When I was a child, I never imagined I would have the power to change Bajor, and as a fighter, I never imagined we'd ever see the end of the Occupation. Through it all, the one thing I did believe in was the Prophets.
And now I have both the power and the opportunity to do something really great for Bajor, except, of course no one is listening to me because I've been attainted. And part of me is very hurt, but the other part says, you know what, I shouldn't sit around feeling sorry for myself. This isn't what Ben would want me to do, and it's not what I normally do. It's not the Kira clan way.
I got up yesterday to do Ezri and Bashir's wedding, which I hadn't studied for in the slightest. I managed to mumble through, although now I'm feeling kind of guilty for not giving it my all. Again, it's this sitting around that bugs me. However, I did get to see baby Benjamin, and I hate to mention this...but...I don't think that baby has any Trill in him at all. No spots. His hair is brownish and curly, not dark.
Miles and Keiko were lovely, as always, but they didn't seem to spend too much time with me. They all left to go do some rituals. Must be a Trill thing, unless Ben skipped those during his wedding. Maybe I should ask Kasidy, if she'll talk to me.