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Its been about half a year since I updated this thing. Heres the happs:
1) Im questioning the people I surround myself with. My father has changed, my "best friends" from high school and in college have turned out to be sort of bad people in ways I never expected. I guess right now the feeling that dominates my life is loneliness. Thank god for my online friends. I would go insane without them.
2) On the online front, things are ok I guess. Drama, once more, with one particular person. I hope it clears up soon but I dunno. CdL makes me happy more often now, which is nice. Its a nice escape from daily life.
3) My parents. My mother is my best friend. My father, however, is a fucking asshole. We got in a fight today over a football game and I thought for a second he was going to hit me. When I was pissed earlier I kind of hoped he would so I could call the cops on his ass. I love my father, but this man is not my father. i dont know where he went. I dont know how my parents arnt divorced yet.
4) Seems im never meant to be with the people I most want to be with due to distance. Story of my life
5)In less depressing news, I think I know what my plan of attack is. Im gonna graduate next fall with a BS in biology, then re-take the MCAT and the GRE. Im gonna see about getting a molecular pathology or PT degree, then reapply for med school the year after next if the score is high enough.
6) I still wanna be on Broadway. I'm settling for summer stock theatre in my hometown, which is cool, but Im scared I didnt get cast this year. Into the Woods is like my dream play and Cinderella would be a great part. Guess we'll see what happens.
7)New years Resolutions:
Surround myself with more positive people
Lose 20 pounds (buy new jeans in a size smaller)
Love my life, poor as it is (copy write: On Walden Pond)
Stop caring what jackasses think of me
Stop Cussing
Gain more confidence
Write a stand up routine
Happy New Years :)
1) Im questioning the people I surround myself with. My father has changed, my "best friends" from high school and in college have turned out to be sort of bad people in ways I never expected. I guess right now the feeling that dominates my life is loneliness. Thank god for my online friends. I would go insane without them.
2) On the online front, things are ok I guess. Drama, once more, with one particular person. I hope it clears up soon but I dunno. CdL makes me happy more often now, which is nice. Its a nice escape from daily life.
3) My parents. My mother is my best friend. My father, however, is a fucking asshole. We got in a fight today over a football game and I thought for a second he was going to hit me. When I was pissed earlier I kind of hoped he would so I could call the cops on his ass. I love my father, but this man is not my father. i dont know where he went. I dont know how my parents arnt divorced yet.
4) Seems im never meant to be with the people I most want to be with due to distance. Story of my life
5)In less depressing news, I think I know what my plan of attack is. Im gonna graduate next fall with a BS in biology, then re-take the MCAT and the GRE. Im gonna see about getting a molecular pathology or PT degree, then reapply for med school the year after next if the score is high enough.
6) I still wanna be on Broadway. I'm settling for summer stock theatre in my hometown, which is cool, but Im scared I didnt get cast this year. Into the Woods is like my dream play and Cinderella would be a great part. Guess we'll see what happens.
7)New years Resolutions:
Surround myself with more positive people
Lose 20 pounds (buy new jeans in a size smaller)
Love my life, poor as it is (copy write: On Walden Pond)
Stop caring what jackasses think of me
Stop Cussing
Gain more confidence
Write a stand up routine
Happy New Years :)