Give me strength...
Still nothing much happening in my life at the moment.
I'm now out of my trial period with the Anti-depressants and on them for quite awhile now as I dont seem to be able to do much without them at the moment.
I seem to do very well with things until the sunday before I sign on, I get restless sleep, the monday I dont sleep and the tuesday I come out of the Job Centre in tears all the time. I cant cope with it. Been out of a job for nearly a year now and no matter what I tell the JobCentre, they're trained to think that everything is bullshit and thats that.
Things have gone a bit pear shaped with Daniel (my cousin) and Lulu, who had a baby together. She left him. Social Services got involved and feel that neither of them are capable at the moment to look after Madison, so at the weekend and after 6 during the week she's with my Auntie, her nannan, and during the day 9-6pm she's with me.
I'm loving it. She makes my day at the moment. I get brody but I'm glad that I can give her back and still have time for me before I have to start again...so kinda not ready for them but if it happened would not have a problem with it at all.
Daniel still thinks Lulu loves him and that she's coming back...but it aint happening. She stole 300 rent out of his bank, reported him to the police for child abuse (been cleared) and caused a lot of shite.
So, we dont know whats happening with this. The situation with Madison is only temporary for a few weeks until something gets sorted but we didnt feel right leaving her to go in care...but she may not be Daniels daughter.
The joys of my family. I'm not getting attached, I'm treating her like any other child...I've never seen her as our Daniels, I've always had my suspicions. So if it goes horribly wrong, I'm not emotionally hurt. Couldnt cope with that either.
But...she is making me want kids. Just have to wait for that though...Always said that at 22 I'd have my first child...as long as I have them this side of 30 I should be ok.
I'm now out of my trial period with the Anti-depressants and on them for quite awhile now as I dont seem to be able to do much without them at the moment.
I seem to do very well with things until the sunday before I sign on, I get restless sleep, the monday I dont sleep and the tuesday I come out of the Job Centre in tears all the time. I cant cope with it. Been out of a job for nearly a year now and no matter what I tell the JobCentre, they're trained to think that everything is bullshit and thats that.
Things have gone a bit pear shaped with Daniel (my cousin) and Lulu, who had a baby together. She left him. Social Services got involved and feel that neither of them are capable at the moment to look after Madison, so at the weekend and after 6 during the week she's with my Auntie, her nannan, and during the day 9-6pm she's with me.
I'm loving it. She makes my day at the moment. I get brody but I'm glad that I can give her back and still have time for me before I have to start again...so kinda not ready for them but if it happened would not have a problem with it at all.
Daniel still thinks Lulu loves him and that she's coming back...but it aint happening. She stole 300 rent out of his bank, reported him to the police for child abuse (been cleared) and caused a lot of shite.
So, we dont know whats happening with this. The situation with Madison is only temporary for a few weeks until something gets sorted but we didnt feel right leaving her to go in care...but she may not be Daniels daughter.
The joys of my family. I'm not getting attached, I'm treating her like any other child...I've never seen her as our Daniels, I've always had my suspicions. So if it goes horribly wrong, I'm not emotionally hurt. Couldnt cope with that either.
But...she is making me want kids. Just have to wait for that though...Always said that at 22 I'd have my first child...as long as I have them this side of 30 I should be ok.