Kink Me! #7
Kink Me! #7
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So it wasn’t Arthur who told Merlin he was gay. It wasn’t Merlin who worked it out, it was an off colour, joking comment from one of his Uni friends about which he’d prefer to shag: Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom… unsurprisingly during a Friday Night Pirates of the Caribbean DVD night.
Merlin had covered up remarkably well, just laughing along with the rest as Arthur said, his heart thudding so much faster and harder than usual, that he wasn’t picky.
That night, however, as Merlin was unrolling his sleeping bag onto the blow up mattress he had looked up and said, a little quietly.
“How long have you known?”
Arthur had not bothered asking what he meant.
“A few years,” he said, shrugging.
“Years…” Merlin had muttered, “how many?”
“Since I was fifteen,” Arthur told him, which was partially true. He didn’t bother adding, ‘I think I’ve always known on some level since I was five and you stuck your tongue out at me’.
“Why didn’t you say anything?” Merlin asked. He sounded hurt, and like the ground had been ripped out from under him. Arthur didn’t know whether Merlin could see, but he shrugged again.
“I don’t know… I never found the right time.”
“You honestly think I would…” Merlin didn’t even finish the sentence. “Any time would have been the right time. I told you everything.”
“I know,” Arthur said, feeling guiltier than he could ever remember having felt before. “I never told you I wasn’t gay.”
“That is not the point!”
“You’re my best friend, I thought… I thought I was your best friend.”
“You are!”
“Then why do they know, when I don’t?”
“I…” Arthur sighed.
“You are such an arrogant git. You get new friends and suddenly you haven’t got the time for the rest of us anymore.”
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Arthur asked. “I speak to you every week.”
“But apparently you don’t tell me anything.”
They had gone to sleep that night without resolving anything. At least, they had eventually gone to sleep. Arthur hadn’t been able to drift off for hours, wondering when he had fucked everything up, and from the restless noises from Merlin, he guessed that he was awake for a while too. They didn’t speak, just lay there in tense silence.
In the morning, Arthur woke up early and got dressed, sitting on the edge of his bed, just watching Merlin until he woke up, trying to get the words straight in his mind. He didn’t know how much to tell, how much to conceal.
When Merlin’s eyes opened slowly, smiling before hardening as he remembered last night, Arthur decided to go for broke. He had never been accused of being a coward… at least never twice by the same person.
“You’re an idiot,” he said, which wasn’t quite what he had intended to come out of his mouth, but it was good enough. Merlin had opened his mouth to speak, but Arthur hadn’t let him. “You assumed I was straight, so I went along with it, it was easier.” He paused. “I wanted to tell you.”
“Then why didn’t you?” Merlin asked. He was watching Arthur carefully, like he was trying to understand. Arthur opened his mouth, but he couldn’t get the words out. So he just looked at Merlin, with his hair sticking in every direction and the criss-cross red lines on his face from the creases of the pillow.
It turned out he didn’t have to say anything, just stay there trying to keep his face under control, because Merlin’s eyes widened and his mouth fell open. Sometimes having been friends for as long as they had was annoying, like when Merlin could practically read his mind.
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