Kink Me! #20
Kink Me! #20
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The minutes crawl by like years, his eyes darting back and forth to the clock finding seconds ticking by instead of day.
His mind replays the morning’s events until that is all he thinks about.
...all he can think about.
Even preparing a simple cup of coffee has become impossible; as he lies sprawled on the couch, head in the crook of his arm, desperate for the chatter in his mind to quieten down.
It is an invisible obsessive pull, attempting to propel him forward at full speed into something he does not yet admit, nor want to understand.
This morning’s events which had happened an hour or so ago, feel as if they were from years ago. What has happened? What was wrong with him…?
Everyone else, Will and Gwaine for example, could have done it. They approach and tackle the world’s problems everyday, as if they were nothing more than a minor battle needed to be won.
They were happy…he had never been conscious of either of them feeling discontent with who they were. Never conscious that they had a secret, constantly whispered in the back of their minds, of being someone else as he had for some time, maybe for the last year... maybe less!
So why…
Why..whywhywhy...WHYWHYWHYWHY?
The answer pricks the back of his mind, as he searches to destroy the record repeating and repeating the same words over and over again…
…why wasn’t he born a girl?
Tears collect in the corners of his eyes as lying on the couch, he begins to sob. His nerves on end, he manages to reach over, to find the last of his sleeping pills. He knew, it was too soon to take anymore but desperation to quieten his thoughts took precedence over safety as his preservation of life kicked in. Lying back, he swallowed one giant pill with no water, then another and another, waiting for what seemed like years, before his mind finally drifted off into another world.
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