one of my biggest mistakes
So googling something I found a very awful, old post I wrote a very long time ago.
I'll just paste the important bits here. It's so embarrassingly awful, haha.
"Hmm...I'm like Darkfur in that I'm bi leaning heavily towards guys. I've only come out to 2 or 3 people in real life. I don't ever plan on telling my parents, but they've already found...stuff. Mostly gay porn on my PC and some chat logs. They think I'm sexually confused and forced me in to Christian therapy. Which sucked and didn't do a thing. They forced me and my ex apart when we were dating. "
"Currently I'm in a...strange relationship. I've never really come out to a public forum about this, but I'm in love with two male polygamists. It's a very unique relationship. Both of them are currently visiting each other for Christmas break until after New Years, which is pissing me off and upsetting me badly. :/ They haven't even talked to me since one of them left... My parents noticed this and I lied and said I was upset about moving, so now they want to send me to therapy about that. Thankfully it's a different one who uses methods that sound better. One loves in New York and the other lives in Kansas. The New Yorker is visiting the Kansasian right now."
"I didn't know about myself until I was 12. I developed a huge crush on a friend of mine and obsessed over him. Every minute in school was spent hanging around with him, and whenever I wasn't with him I was sad and thinking about him. Good times. =P Always had fantasies of us together and getting married and stuff. It lasted all the way throughout school until I switched to home school, with other various crushes going on. Also, gym showers were awesome."
"I don't really want a family at all, either. I have no desire to have kids or get married...which would be hard with two lovers and all."
"Well...over a year ago, in Julyish, I met the guy from New York on GameFAQs. I posted something out of depression and he contacted me about it. Then I fell in love with him and for a couple of weeks I thought it was just me and him, then he revealed he had a "soul mate." I was crushed and angry etc etc and hated his "soul mate" for the longest of times. Then he introduced me to him and...well, I liked him a lot. Then we talked more and I fell in love with him, too. And that's how it turned out. As for ages, I'm 16, the first one is 17, and the last one is 19. They're known as SeRazo and Zethis, respectively. I personally don't believe in polygamy but oh well. It kinda makes me upset sometimes, especially since I'm the jealous "grr give me the attention darn you" type. But...well, I'm happy."
"No...I haven't met them. They've been together 5 years and this is their first time meeting. I'd have to get by my parents, too...and I don't really want them thinking I've run away for a few weeks nor do I really want to bring someone they don't know and have never heard of to the house randomly."
This is a story I tell a lot of people, just because of how absurdly awful it is. These were dark times for me and I was very unstable, semi-suicidal, you know the typical teen bullshit.
I hate finding old shit on the internet because you realize what a little faggot you used to be.
I'm so glad I am out of this dumbass relationship. Never doing bullshit like this again.
I'll just paste the important bits here. It's so embarrassingly awful, haha.
"Hmm...I'm like Darkfur in that I'm bi leaning heavily towards guys. I've only come out to 2 or 3 people in real life. I don't ever plan on telling my parents, but they've already found...stuff. Mostly gay porn on my PC and some chat logs. They think I'm sexually confused and forced me in to Christian therapy. Which sucked and didn't do a thing. They forced me and my ex apart when we were dating. "
"Currently I'm in a...strange relationship. I've never really come out to a public forum about this, but I'm in love with two male polygamists. It's a very unique relationship. Both of them are currently visiting each other for Christmas break until after New Years, which is pissing me off and upsetting me badly. :/ They haven't even talked to me since one of them left... My parents noticed this and I lied and said I was upset about moving, so now they want to send me to therapy about that. Thankfully it's a different one who uses methods that sound better. One loves in New York and the other lives in Kansas. The New Yorker is visiting the Kansasian right now."
"I didn't know about myself until I was 12. I developed a huge crush on a friend of mine and obsessed over him. Every minute in school was spent hanging around with him, and whenever I wasn't with him I was sad and thinking about him. Good times. =P Always had fantasies of us together and getting married and stuff. It lasted all the way throughout school until I switched to home school, with other various crushes going on. Also, gym showers were awesome."
"I don't really want a family at all, either. I have no desire to have kids or get married...which would be hard with two lovers and all."
"Well...over a year ago, in Julyish, I met the guy from New York on GameFAQs. I posted something out of depression and he contacted me about it. Then I fell in love with him and for a couple of weeks I thought it was just me and him, then he revealed he had a "soul mate." I was crushed and angry etc etc and hated his "soul mate" for the longest of times. Then he introduced me to him and...well, I liked him a lot. Then we talked more and I fell in love with him, too. And that's how it turned out. As for ages, I'm 16, the first one is 17, and the last one is 19. They're known as SeRazo and Zethis, respectively. I personally don't believe in polygamy but oh well. It kinda makes me upset sometimes, especially since I'm the jealous "grr give me the attention darn you" type. But...well, I'm happy."
"No...I haven't met them. They've been together 5 years and this is their first time meeting. I'd have to get by my parents, too...and I don't really want them thinking I've run away for a few weeks nor do I really want to bring someone they don't know and have never heard of to the house randomly."
This is a story I tell a lot of people, just because of how absurdly awful it is. These were dark times for me and I was very unstable, semi-suicidal, you know the typical teen bullshit.
I hate finding old shit on the internet because you realize what a little faggot you used to be.
I'm so glad I am out of this dumbass relationship. Never doing bullshit like this again.