This Strangness of Late

[kineticsynopsis]

Hmmm, I don't suppose that anyone would tell me that it's normal when a man of barely two decades feels as though he's going through a midlife crisis? I do so hope that this doesn't mean that I'm only going to life to be forty. That would blow...

Alright, I suppose that an entry here has been a long time coming. I was putting it off as long as

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[digital_artboy]

Man I think it's good that you remember and write down your dreams like that. Remember, this LJ thing is a kind of community where you're sharing this stuff, but it's also for you too! Sometimes when I'm aimlessly trying to get some perspective, I just look back in my old LJ archives [or someone else's >_>]. I was amazed looking over them a little while ago to see that [with the exception of a lone, net-less month last year] I've been posting at least once or twice every month for three years now. There are memories and subtle inclinations as to how I've changed as a person, and as a writer in there that'd never snapped up to the surface in my head yet.

So I guess my only 'advice' to you, as it were, is to keep this stuff close to you, somewhere. I hope that you can hit that emotional groove soon that us folks tend to snap back to after a bad spell.

I've been feeling out of sorts too, though that state of self has been running now for so long that I doubt it's really an 'abnormal' thing for me. Despondency and vauge feelings of ambition are only disspelled with an opportunity or goal in sight when it comes to this stuff for me. For you, maybe it could be something similar.

We're all common, everyday humanoids. That can be made interesting as hell too, though!

PS - Reading this guy's work has changed quite bit about what I know, and what I think I know about things.
http://www.largeprimenumbers.com
Reading it always make me want to do something. I think maybe you'd like said stuff as well! I hope that you at least can find your niche; your skew on the world that brings out the inspiration underneath.
There's a lot of stuff on his site there that's un-linked or tucked away. Here's an essay he did called "Chaning the World in Japanese" that I'd reccommend. It's long but satisfyingly so I think.
http://www.largeprimenumbers.com/article.php?sid=changingtheworld

[kineticsynopsis]

Thanks man, I know that it's just a matter of time 'till this passes. But these dips have been seeming to get deeper and more frequent as of late. I guess it might just be lack of sleep and such.

Sorry I missed you today, my parents decided not to go to church today and didn't tell me until they woke me up at 12 XD