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[kimpuff]

I fucking hate that I'm such a jealous person. I'm not even in a relationship with this guy - though I have said that I want to be and he said the only thing that was stopping it was a slight miscommunication that we then cleared up but ok whatever it's still not happening - but he so blatantly flirts with girls and it makes feel awful. I then feel even more awful because we're not even in a relationship and we're supposed to be friends and I have no excuse for feeling this way and ugh

I wish I could just turn off my emotions. I just want that.