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..What am I supposed to do?! I'm stuck. For once, I'm really stuck. "Now, why?" you may ask. A guy just asked me out on a date. I guess it's not too uncommon for me, but this isn't just any guy. He's a neighbor. He's my mom's best friend's son. So, not only has he been like my brother my whole life, but he's practically graduated college. Sure, he's really nice and we have a lot of interests in common, but first off, I'm not too into the whole dating thing. It's awkward. Second off, he's so much older than me. Trouble relating much?
My dad's trying to pressure me into dating him. My mom's for it too, but not as gung-ho about it as my dad. He's nice.. but.. but.. I don't know how to put this. I'm just not really into him? He's more of the friend, fun-to-talk-to but totally-would-never-want-to-kiss type.
Am I too picky with my guys? I mean, I don't exactly have them flocking to me, but I've had a pretty good number that have been asking me out recently. But the guys that ask me out aren't the ones I'm into. They're either like Will or the big brother type or total strangers so I haven't dated any of them. It's not like I have super high expectations or anything, the guys I like aren't extremely popular. Well, maybe I should put it "guy."
That's probably my problem, I just can't get over Alex. I've been having a lot of dreams about him lately too. Why? I thought I was almost over him too. Of course, there have been a good number of guys I'd have dated anyways. I guess James would probably be a good example. I hope my friends don't read this because they'd probably be shocked ^_^;; But being completely honest, yeah I guess I was falling for him. He'd probably have moved way too fast for me though. But he sure knew how to make me laugh. He was one of the few guys I could actually yell at. I'm usually a pretty quiet person so that tends to make things slightly awkward I think, but for some reason with him I could seriously just be myself.
I hope he'll be okay going back into public school. But James is a different story. If I aimed for him, I would definitely be aiming.. somewhere else. I can't exactly say high since he wasn't exactly the most popular person, but he was hot. But that's definitely not why I would've dated him.
Anyways, for now I semi-rejected him. I feel bad about rejecting him so I'll still think about it, but I just don't think the timing's right. Right now I'm focusing on my future, guy's are definitely at the bottom of the priority list.
My dad's trying to pressure me into dating him. My mom's for it too, but not as gung-ho about it as my dad. He's nice.. but.. but.. I don't know how to put this. I'm just not really into him? He's more of the friend, fun-to-talk-to but totally-would-never-want-to-kiss type.
Am I too picky with my guys? I mean, I don't exactly have them flocking to me, but I've had a pretty good number that have been asking me out recently. But the guys that ask me out aren't the ones I'm into. They're either like Will or the big brother type or total strangers so I haven't dated any of them. It's not like I have super high expectations or anything, the guys I like aren't extremely popular. Well, maybe I should put it "guy."
That's probably my problem, I just can't get over Alex. I've been having a lot of dreams about him lately too. Why? I thought I was almost over him too. Of course, there have been a good number of guys I'd have dated anyways. I guess James would probably be a good example. I hope my friends don't read this because they'd probably be shocked ^_^;; But being completely honest, yeah I guess I was falling for him. He'd probably have moved way too fast for me though. But he sure knew how to make me laugh. He was one of the few guys I could actually yell at. I'm usually a pretty quiet person so that tends to make things slightly awkward I think, but for some reason with him I could seriously just be myself.
I hope he'll be okay going back into public school. But James is a different story. If I aimed for him, I would definitely be aiming.. somewhere else. I can't exactly say high since he wasn't exactly the most popular person, but he was hot. But that's definitely not why I would've dated him.
Anyways, for now I semi-rejected him. I feel bad about rejecting him so I'll still think about it, but I just don't think the timing's right. Right now I'm focusing on my future, guy's are definitely at the bottom of the priority list.