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i'm angry. and i'm hurt and upset. why the fuck should i make every damn effort in this relationship?
my car broke down last night, and i couldn't get it fixed today. so therefore, i couldn't drive to gloucester like i wanted to. but do you think that he could have driven down here? after all, he did absolutely nothing today and it's not like i live wicked far away from his work. i mean seriously! why do i have to do everything?? let's get back to the subject of my birthday....yes he sent me flowers and yes we went to see kings of leon, but other than that? nothing. no dinner, cause we were both wicked tired that night, but he hasn't even tried to make it up another night. i mean for real, it was my 25th birthday!!!
so fuck him. fuck everything that i've worked to keep going for the past 10 months, fuck everything that i wanted from this relationship, and fuck staying in this goddamn dead end relationship. the last thing i want is to become a fucking lazy piece of shit hippie. cause that it exactly where my life would be going if things don't change soon. i can't fucking take it anymore. i'm sick and goddamn tired of being the fucking downer in this. he who drinks EVERY GODDAMN NIGHT is telling me that maybe i go out too much. you know what, FUCK YOU. i go out because i can't stand the miserable sight of your depressing face. you're so fucking negative and every one is always out to put you down.....fuck you and your stupid principles, that make sense to NO ONE but you....so what you've had a hard life, WHO THE FUCK HASN'T??? you just need to pick up and make the best of everything that you're given. it's no use crying over what you don't have and how unfair life is. GET OVER YOURSELF.
i'm seething mad right now and all i want to do it fucking punch something. i want to fire pucks at an empty net until i pull a muscle in my back. i want to scream and throw things like a 2 year old, because i'm so fucking DONE with you.
my car broke down last night, and i couldn't get it fixed today. so therefore, i couldn't drive to gloucester like i wanted to. but do you think that he could have driven down here? after all, he did absolutely nothing today and it's not like i live wicked far away from his work. i mean seriously! why do i have to do everything?? let's get back to the subject of my birthday....yes he sent me flowers and yes we went to see kings of leon, but other than that? nothing. no dinner, cause we were both wicked tired that night, but he hasn't even tried to make it up another night. i mean for real, it was my 25th birthday!!!
so fuck him. fuck everything that i've worked to keep going for the past 10 months, fuck everything that i wanted from this relationship, and fuck staying in this goddamn dead end relationship. the last thing i want is to become a fucking lazy piece of shit hippie. cause that it exactly where my life would be going if things don't change soon. i can't fucking take it anymore. i'm sick and goddamn tired of being the fucking downer in this. he who drinks EVERY GODDAMN NIGHT is telling me that maybe i go out too much. you know what, FUCK YOU. i go out because i can't stand the miserable sight of your depressing face. you're so fucking negative and every one is always out to put you down.....fuck you and your stupid principles, that make sense to NO ONE but you....so what you've had a hard life, WHO THE FUCK HASN'T??? you just need to pick up and make the best of everything that you're given. it's no use crying over what you don't have and how unfair life is. GET OVER YOURSELF.
i'm seething mad right now and all i want to do it fucking punch something. i want to fire pucks at an empty net until i pull a muscle in my back. i want to scream and throw things like a 2 year old, because i'm so fucking DONE with you.