Bah.
Mastering others is strength. Mastering yourself is True Power.
Tao Te Ching.
Never more truthful words have been spoken. You can judge others, attempt to control others.
But when it comes to yourself, setting aside your own emotions is one of the most difficult tasks one can master.
I failed this morning, I vented my anger towards my Marine Bio Teacher. Probably one of the worst teachers on the face of the planet. He still didn't deserve it. He was doing nothing wrong. I was just in a bad mood, and it seems I spoke more openly with my thoughts than I should have.
But what Black did was quite a weak tactic for a teacher, quite paradoxical.
"Just leave then."
I can't back out of that offer. Because then he wins... and knowing me, I don't let age and authority let the victor be claimed.
Wether or not he knows this. I was not excited to leave, rather from the opposite, but I could not let him win with such a stupid comment.
And now, it seems so stupid to me, and I've realized my mistake. Conciousness is the key to enlightnement.
To give you an idea of Black, heres a few examples. And then todays lil story.
First day of class, he says: Push ups are the key to enlightnment.
I guess, then I didn't understand why a wrestling coach shouldn't be a teacher. Because hes an idiot.
Today I got kicked out of class for a few reasons. Probably because I had pulled up a chair and put my feet up on it, making it difficult for his fat ass to get between the rows, doing whatever the hell he was doing. I think passing out papers and answering questions for an asisgnment we have done since the 3rd week of school.
Another reason that probably added onto this when I told him he doesn't teach. Now, everyone knows this, but no one really has the guts to say it to his face, everyone says it to me, and i grow tired of their complaining and inaction. But Daniel talking shit to the teacher isn't going to help. Yes I know, but I was tired, didn't want to be there, and once again just in a bad mood. He replies with, no you don't learn I give you the oppertunity to, you just don't take it. I teach.
I say something mean after, but I think he just ignores me, if he had heard I probably woulda been gone even faster.
Another example, last day before winterbreak he is gone. And gives us a coloring busy work, workshit i mean sheet. While he is GONE, we have to color. How fucking amazing oppertunity is that?Oh my, we get to color in 2 different shades.
I take notes on what we were suppose to and pass it in, uncolored. The sub seemed really concerned for my grade, he sat down across from me and said, "You know i understand that coloring might seem a little too simple for you, but i don't want your grade to be sacrifced for something so easy"
I shouldn't have to sacrifice it. ITS A FUCKING COLORING WORKSHEET USED FOR KIDS!
Where is the place for wit in the fucking class? Does anyone have any dignity? Or must we all drone on and stay simple minded fools.
Step Back Daniel. Whats that, negative emotion. Yup. Why? No meditation for a long time. Stress of school stress of practice...
i'll leave it at that for now.... More later.
Tao Te Ching.
Never more truthful words have been spoken. You can judge others, attempt to control others.
But when it comes to yourself, setting aside your own emotions is one of the most difficult tasks one can master.
I failed this morning, I vented my anger towards my Marine Bio Teacher. Probably one of the worst teachers on the face of the planet. He still didn't deserve it. He was doing nothing wrong. I was just in a bad mood, and it seems I spoke more openly with my thoughts than I should have.
But what Black did was quite a weak tactic for a teacher, quite paradoxical.
"Just leave then."
I can't back out of that offer. Because then he wins... and knowing me, I don't let age and authority let the victor be claimed.
Wether or not he knows this. I was not excited to leave, rather from the opposite, but I could not let him win with such a stupid comment.
And now, it seems so stupid to me, and I've realized my mistake. Conciousness is the key to enlightnement.
To give you an idea of Black, heres a few examples. And then todays lil story.
First day of class, he says: Push ups are the key to enlightnment.
I guess, then I didn't understand why a wrestling coach shouldn't be a teacher. Because hes an idiot.
Today I got kicked out of class for a few reasons. Probably because I had pulled up a chair and put my feet up on it, making it difficult for his fat ass to get between the rows, doing whatever the hell he was doing. I think passing out papers and answering questions for an asisgnment we have done since the 3rd week of school.
Another reason that probably added onto this when I told him he doesn't teach. Now, everyone knows this, but no one really has the guts to say it to his face, everyone says it to me, and i grow tired of their complaining and inaction. But Daniel talking shit to the teacher isn't going to help. Yes I know, but I was tired, didn't want to be there, and once again just in a bad mood. He replies with, no you don't learn I give you the oppertunity to, you just don't take it. I teach.
I say something mean after, but I think he just ignores me, if he had heard I probably woulda been gone even faster.
Another example, last day before winterbreak he is gone. And gives us a coloring busy work, workshit i mean sheet. While he is GONE, we have to color. How fucking amazing oppertunity is that?Oh my, we get to color in 2 different shades.
I take notes on what we were suppose to and pass it in, uncolored. The sub seemed really concerned for my grade, he sat down across from me and said, "You know i understand that coloring might seem a little too simple for you, but i don't want your grade to be sacrifced for something so easy"
I shouldn't have to sacrifice it. ITS A FUCKING COLORING WORKSHEET USED FOR KIDS!
Where is the place for wit in the fucking class? Does anyone have any dignity? Or must we all drone on and stay simple minded fools.
Step Back Daniel. Whats that, negative emotion. Yup. Why? No meditation for a long time. Stress of school stress of practice...
i'll leave it at that for now.... More later.