It's Monday.
I was talking with Drew and Britany after school today. It seems like everyone is moving. Drew's going to Texas, I'm going to California, and Britany is going to Flordia. We we're talking about it and it occured to us that a third of the school is probably going to be all that's left next year. Our high school is going to be like a ghost town. Toni's staying here though. I'll miss her. Her, Britany, and Drew are my best friends. Last year it was me, Toni, and Britany. We were always together. There was this awesome teacher named Mr. Zimmermann, and he always let us eat lunch in his room, even though the other teachers complained about it. Then Britany moved away to Flordia and we lost touch and we didn't hear from her FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR! Then Mr. Zimmermann was forced to retire. Soon after that Drew came into the picture. Me and Toni went to summer camp together and then we split off over the summer, meeting up together again on the second day of school, finding out that we had two classes together (B1 and B4). I was glad, now she could get to know the terror of being in Manwarrings class, too (After all, she never could understand what I had against him last year when I had him A3). Then in the middle of the second quarter, Toni came looking for me right before tutorial. She was all mad, because she had been looking for me all durring lunch and couldn't find me. She looked like she had just seen a ghost.
"Guess who's here!" She breathlessly ordered
In almost silence, I pratically mouthed the name Britany while she nodded her head. Durring tutorial we devised a plan (unsuccessful, by the way) to sneak into her tutorial to see her that day. I couldn't believe it, I almost cried! (Thank the good lord, I didn't!)So then Britany was back and it was the three of us again, but then... (dun duh dun dun dun...) Toni stops talking to me!!! At first I can't figure out why and it seemed like for two months (maybe a little more) I was aimlessly wondering around in the same places. It seemed like I lost my best friend. I would start crying for no reason. I would cry in the halls durring lunch when no one was around. I would cry in my room I was afraid to leave, because all my sanity and what was left of my self esteem depended on it. I would just cry, and I couldn't ever tell anyone why, because I didn't understand it myself.
Then something awful happened! I'm not going in to details, because it's Toni's business, but when I heard about it all I could think of was Oh no! How awful, Why wasn't I there for her! Some best friend I was! In the end, we became friends again, but it was a pity that something so tragic had to be what it took to bring us back together. I mean it wasn't her fault, and it wasn't mine. We both played our roles and hidden feelings began to form a wall between us. I vow to never let it get that out of hand again, ever! Now I'm friends with Toni, and I'm friends with Britany, but at the same time, it feels like it's changed, It doesn't feel like the fantastic three anymore. It feels like two completely different groups. I know it's going to be okay between us, though. It always will be in the end.
One definite lesson that I've learned from all this though, was that your best friends are not the ones who never stab you in the back, because anyone is capable of hurting you. Your best friends are the ones who can turn around, look you in the eye, and then forgive you for hurting them, without ever bringing it up again, despite the pain you've caused them.
"Guess who's here!" She breathlessly ordered
In almost silence, I pratically mouthed the name Britany while she nodded her head. Durring tutorial we devised a plan (unsuccessful, by the way) to sneak into her tutorial to see her that day. I couldn't believe it, I almost cried! (Thank the good lord, I didn't!)So then Britany was back and it was the three of us again, but then... (dun duh dun dun dun...) Toni stops talking to me!!! At first I can't figure out why and it seemed like for two months (maybe a little more) I was aimlessly wondering around in the same places. It seemed like I lost my best friend. I would start crying for no reason. I would cry in the halls durring lunch when no one was around. I would cry in my room I was afraid to leave, because all my sanity and what was left of my self esteem depended on it. I would just cry, and I couldn't ever tell anyone why, because I didn't understand it myself.
Then something awful happened! I'm not going in to details, because it's Toni's business, but when I heard about it all I could think of was Oh no! How awful, Why wasn't I there for her! Some best friend I was! In the end, we became friends again, but it was a pity that something so tragic had to be what it took to bring us back together. I mean it wasn't her fault, and it wasn't mine. We both played our roles and hidden feelings began to form a wall between us. I vow to never let it get that out of hand again, ever! Now I'm friends with Toni, and I'm friends with Britany, but at the same time, it feels like it's changed, It doesn't feel like the fantastic three anymore. It feels like two completely different groups. I know it's going to be okay between us, though. It always will be in the end.
One definite lesson that I've learned from all this though, was that your best friends are not the ones who never stab you in the back, because anyone is capable of hurting you. Your best friends are the ones who can turn around, look you in the eye, and then forgive you for hurting them, without ever bringing it up again, despite the pain you've caused them.