Twenty four hours without a cigarette...
And I'm feeling? I don't know. I was fine throughout the day. Maybe that's because I slept until almost 2:00. I had nowhere to be today and while that sounds nice, it's not. I'd rather work. So this no smoking thing fell on a day that was sure to throw some challenges. For one, I was bored. I had some phone calls to make and did other little random things. I took a 2 hour walk. I took another walk later. I tried hard to distract myself. I did a lot of sudoku. Eventually, I felt the urge to smoke. Right now is especially hard. I am so tempted to get in my car and drive down to BP. But I won't. I am going to do this. Cutting back the number I smoke just isn't doing it. It's time I go cold turkey. I think this would be much easier if it weren't for the FBI. Yeah, the FBI. They are making life a bitch right now all because they are so god-damn picky about finger prints. I can't schedule boards until this clears up and I'm losing patience. I get on facebook and see that "so and so is so excited because she's officially an RN". While my classmates are celebrating and beginning there jobs, I don't even have a test date. It's out of my control and it pisses me off. I also need the money. I called the Ohio Board of Nursing to find out why I have heard nothing from them. It's the fingerprints. The woman told me if I got them redone this past Friday, it should take 2 weeks. I don't think I can wait 2 weeks. Thanks for not calling to let me know why I have heard nothing on Ohio's end. The lady who did my fingerprints told me if the FBI rejected them once, they'll likely do it again making the process over a month long. It frustrated the living hell out of me. I've also lost hours with Ryan because his plan recently got rid of the independent providers so he would be getting nursing care instead. He has seizures so his case manager made the switch. Once I am a nurse, I will get back with him. But for now I'm losing a lot of hours. This whole process is just driving me crazy. Fuck the FBI. Fuck Ohio. Fuck me for starting smoking in the first place.