love & weekends
As I sit in the living room and watch my partner sleep on the floor while our son drapes himself across his father, I am bursting with sappy loviness. A huge percentage of my feelings for Rick have to do with the kind of papa he is to our son. I love to see how much Gabe adores his father. I know at some point these relationships will shift and snuggling us will no longer be as appealing. I feel very blessed to be able to witness their love for each other.
As for weekends we have conflict. I spend all week at home with Gabe which is a choice while Rick is at work. However by the time weekends role around I am excited about doing stuff together. I want outings! We just returned from a beautiful nature walk at a refuge we saw deer, a bunny and lots of birds, The waves and rocks were amazing! Now we are home and there has been NO discussion about a plan for the rest of the day and the nap is happening. Partly I do not understand naps, not a napper. I understand he needs to relax and recoup from the weeks of stress and prepare for business trip next week. But if is going to continue to be Gabe and I, I feel frustrated, an extension of the week. I do not need a lot of time to myself. I do need a lot of time with Rick and friends, but he needs naps. Guess I will just look forward to vacation and suck it up.
As for weekends we have conflict. I spend all week at home with Gabe which is a choice while Rick is at work. However by the time weekends role around I am excited about doing stuff together. I want outings! We just returned from a beautiful nature walk at a refuge we saw deer, a bunny and lots of birds, The waves and rocks were amazing! Now we are home and there has been NO discussion about a plan for the rest of the day and the nap is happening. Partly I do not understand naps, not a napper. I understand he needs to relax and recoup from the weeks of stress and prepare for business trip next week. But if is going to continue to be Gabe and I, I feel frustrated, an extension of the week. I do not need a lot of time to myself. I do need a lot of time with Rick and friends, but he needs naps. Guess I will just look forward to vacation and suck it up.