bid my blood to run
sunday is church we watched a montage of scenes from the passion of the Christ
they paired the movie with the song 'bring me to life' by evanescence
i've ALWAYS hated that song
until i listened to it in that context
Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.
All this time
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something wrong.
Bring me to life.
for the first time in my life
i'm starting to feel like an entire person
i think a good part of that is thanks to my church recovery group
i'm a very logical person
not sure really how to tell this in the way that kris did
but he changed my entire perspective with this
the Christian thing to do with your problems
is to 'give them to God'
but as kris explained
his personality wont allow him to just vanish these problems into the air
we get into the habit of storing that stuff away
compartmentalizing
giving things to God
then taking them back
mistakenly thinking that we can control them more than He can
so what do you do?
leave them at the cross
unpack your bags
take out your problems
your 'hurts, habits and hang ups'
empty your closets
and leave all that pain at the cross with Jesus
somehow being able to visualize holding my problems
taking them out of my head
out of my heart
and laying them down in front of Jesus
and walking away
leaving them with Him
puts it all in a new light for me
Wake me up.
Wake me up inside.
I can't wake up.
Wake me up inside.
Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Wake me up.
Bid my blood to run.
I can't wake up.
Before I come undone.
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.
Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.