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after becoming used to 10-12 hour serving shifts(and not being super tired afterwards), i finally get a baby gleam of hope in the form of a biomedical lab tech position that has sweet pay and (extra) sweet benefits; aka having health benefits at all. oddly enough, going to the health department for all my needs(mostly lady-involved) the last year has ended up a great deal more painless than any medical offices i've been in with health insurance. strange. the doctors i've gone to when i've had medical insurance have longer waits and force me to have nothing less than a 3yro style hissy fit to actually get them to listen to the(fucking) words that are coming from my mouth. it's sad that so many people go through medical school to simply become a hand that prescribes the zpac.
anywhoozles, i'm hoping said job works out and am generally dead set on getting my shit together because i have a reason to want my "all growed up" life to get started. i'm being stubborn and ignoring the little voice of realism that says i can't have the amazing person i'm in love with for always and that life is a continual uphill battle. mine has been a struggle for some reason or the other thus far i think i'm owed a minute of cakewalking; i'm taking that minute.
i made so many tough choices in the past because i knew deep down they were right. i'm realizing that making those decisions even when i knew i would also be hurting myself has made me a stronger person. now life's going to be wonderful because i won't accept anything less.
anywhoozles, i'm hoping said job works out and am generally dead set on getting my shit together because i have a reason to want my "all growed up" life to get started. i'm being stubborn and ignoring the little voice of realism that says i can't have the amazing person i'm in love with for always and that life is a continual uphill battle. mine has been a struggle for some reason or the other thus far i think i'm owed a minute of cakewalking; i'm taking that minute.
i made so many tough choices in the past because i knew deep down they were right. i'm realizing that making those decisions even when i knew i would also be hurting myself has made me a stronger person. now life's going to be wonderful because i won't accept anything less.