Changes...
Apparently I have changed...a lot of people have noticed it...except for me. And I don't know why...maybe it's just the fact that I think everyone else is changing...hmmm....I just can't wait to go back to Cleveland. Am I just ready to run away from everything....sure. Whatever fills the void I guess....for now anyway. I stopped taking my pills for a week now...and started taking them again two days ago...maybe that has something to do with it. I don't know...I'm not going to sit here and blame my problems on anti-anxiety shit....Anyway...I had a chat with my mom again the other day. She wanted to know why I don't want to go see a shrink. She also wanted to know why I wanted to leave her house...why it is so bad to live with her...and I just broke down. I couldn't handle it. Because when she put it like that...I could see why she was so angry...I never thought of it from her point of view. I just wanted to be out of their way...so they could be happy because my sister and my mom didn't need to be around their "psycho" sister and daughter. And it made me realize how much help I really need. To actually think that my mom wouldn't want me around just because I need help. Wow. I don't really know why I would think that. I hate being over stressed. Especially when my grandpa gets on my case about things...then he gets my dad, my mom and my sister involved then I have people bitching at me from every end. It's so not fair. I don't know...I just need to clear my head. Maybe when I go back to Cleveland everyone will have the 'old' Kim back. I don't even know who that is...Wow...crazy...
Hard to Say-The Used
The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
(Chorus-1)
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
My worries weight the world how I used to be
And everything, I'm cold
seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
(Chorus-2)
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
Worse than the fear it's a lie you told
A thousand times before
Worse than a fear it's the knife
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and i cried
Hard to Say-The Used
The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
(Chorus-1)
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
My worries weight the world how I used to be
And everything, I'm cold
seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
(Chorus-2)
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone
It's not the same
Worse than the fear it's a lie you told
A thousand times before
Worse than a fear it's the knife
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and i cried