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i dont know whats wrong with me lately. everytime we talk i feel stupid and my stomach twists and turns. i really dont know why. it twists and turns almost to the point of me puking...which is weird. im never usually like this. ive been sitting on this for weeks now without a good reason. i get nervous and i worry about everything i say. every other time im just myself..but this time is different and its getting to me. usually when we talk im smiling and happier than i could possibly be. but lately it isnt that way. our conversations have become short and increasingly difficult for me to handle. ive also noticed i take many deep breaths when we talk. i dont know. whats wrong with me. i feel so stupid and lost. but when he says things to me that no one else does....it just puts me on cloud 9. i can smile for days from the things he says to me. im so over dramatic.