Life is beginning to worsen.
This hasn't happened in a while...me updating that is. Work tonight blew ass more than ever. I couldn't go up an aisle to pull shoes w/o having the sudden urge to start bawling...quickly wiping away the tears before i got to the end hoping nobody noticed. I went to the bathroom once to cry in private though. And spent my whole lunch break bothering Alyssa with my tears. I'm sorry. But after 11:30 break...things started to settle down and go better than the first 7 and a half hours...which took too long to be over. I've really fucked things up this time and i really wish there was something i could do to fix it. Going back in time isn't an option, b/c that type of travel hasn't been figured out yet. All i can do is sit back and wait for the outcome. I honestly hope it comes out in my favor...there are still so many days and nights i want to share. I know i can change. I just hope i'm given the chance to prove it...