Life
So....yesterday I told my mom that I needed to have a talk with her coz I had a lot on my mind. Lets just say that...I am going to start going to school part time instead of full, and work full time instead of part. My mom didnt get as upset as I though she would but told me she couldnt really force me to do anything I didnt want to do. Only problem is that once I start working full time I have to pay for my car payment, cell phone bill,aol bill and half of the insurance, all on my lonesome. After that Looong talk, she asked me if there was anything else on my mind....and I had wished that there wasnt. But I told her that I had made a choice a long time ago about a certain subject... me, my mom and stepdad had...almost two years ago.I told her that I was still gay...that ive been Gay...and that there has never really been to much of a stuggle for me. They asked me if I realized what this would do to the family and If I thought about ever getting sick or hurt because of my choice. The answers were yes. I could not continue living in this house and Lying to my parents everytime I saw them. They dont have too much trust for me right now...lets just say its because they know everything about me and what I have done....no names...just facts. I also really dont know how long I have before I wont have a home. We dont hate
eachother...but such is life that we might have to do what is better for the..."greater good"...so to speak. There were more statements made during that convo that I just dont have te energy to type or talk about at the moment so..yea. Im emotionally and phsyically drained and getting a cold.yay for me. And its four something in the a.m. and Im waiting for this stupid boy to call me like he said he would. But hes probably not becuase his ass probably fell asleep on the way to the phone. But w/e its kool. I think I'll live.
One love,
Nick
eachother...but such is life that we might have to do what is better for the..."greater good"...so to speak. There were more statements made during that convo that I just dont have te energy to type or talk about at the moment so..yea. Im emotionally and phsyically drained and getting a cold.yay for me. And its four something in the a.m. and Im waiting for this stupid boy to call me like he said he would. But hes probably not becuase his ass probably fell asleep on the way to the phone. But w/e its kool. I think I'll live.
One love,
Nick