Hanggang chat na lang ba?
Alam mo ang ayoko sa lahat. Eh 'yung manloloko. Isang sinungaling. Mahirap makipagcommit. Mas lalong mahirap kung nasa malayo ang isa. At mas lalong malabo, kung hindi pa siya lubusang kilala kahit na ba ilang buwan na kayong magkausap. Ano nga ba naman ang chat diba? Asa computer lang. Hindi nakikita ang isa't-isa. Malayo. Hindi lubusang nakikilala ang isang tao dahil hindi pa ito nakikita at nakakasama sa personal.
Hanggang chat na lang ba?
Walanjo.
Mahirap magtiwala.
Lalo na't nasa chat lang nagsimula ang lahat. May webcam man o wala, mahirap pa ring paniwalaan ang mga sinasabi. Gusto mo man maniwala. Mahirap ng sobra. Guardiyado ang puso. Ayaw masaktan.
Madalas magduda. Pinang-hihinalaan kung nagsasabi ba ng totoo o hindi.
Palaging iniisip kung anong ginagawa kapag hindi ka kausap. Nakakaloka. Nakakabaliw. Palibhasa kasi, nagawa na niya. Siya nga naman, binigyan kasi ng rason para mas lalong mahirapang magtiwala.
Paranoia. Kapraningan.
Hindi lubusang maisip kung bakit nagkakaganito?
Dapat bang maghinala? o Dapat bang magtiwala?
Isa siya sa mga rason kung bakit ako nagalak makarating dito sa Canada. 9 na oras na lang naman kasi ang distansya naming dalawa.
Nine.
Siyam.
Nuebe.
Hindi katulad dati, dose oras. o timezone ba 'yun? Ewan. Basta malabo kasi malayo.
Eh ngayon, mas may chansa ng sa wakas magkita at magkakilala kami... Pero para sa kanya, mahirap pa rin.
Ewan. Ang hirap na talaga magtiwala... Parang ayaw ko ng magtiwala.
Hindi mo malaman kung totoo ba o hindi eh. Ah basta, mahirap.
Kukunin ko na kay Meggie 'yung libro ni Bo Sanchez na "How to Find Your One True Love". Siguro time na para muling ibalik ang atensyon ko sa aking sarili. Ika nga sa job world, "market yourself".
Pero in a good way.
Gusto ko ng bumalik ng Pinas.
Another Tagalog entry. Woohoo!!!
٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶
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Oh Max and Moira from Ulink.ca asked me to contact them the other day if I'm interested in working for their company--which is freelancing for Tall Tale Media making portraits and AVPs and community documentaries promoting community businesses in Ontario.
The catch? It's in Waterloo, Ontario.
A mere 2 1/2 hour drive from Brampton.
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Something Better
Robot and the Beanstalk
[transcribed by yours truly, niceverdict]
Trying to keep it alive
But there are these doubts I cannot hide
Only saying to me what I wanna hear
You're not being honest with me, I fear
And tell me do you think it's possible
Or is it too far out of my reach
Am i just gonna bring myself down
And look back on my faded dreams
Or is it true?
Could there be something better out there for me?
Could my dream become a reality?
In spite of all those who don't believe me?
I'm wondering if this is right or wrong
If it doesn't make me selfish or out of control
No, stop. And take me seriously
They think I'll grow out of it
But in my heart, it's all that I can see
How do I stop myself from being me?
--------i can't understand the words---------
These words are all I've got
Or is it true?
Could there be something better out there for me?
Could my dream become a reality?
In spite of all those who don't believe me?
==========================
How do I stop myself from being me?
Hanggang chat na lang ba?
Walanjo.
Mahirap magtiwala.
Lalo na't nasa chat lang nagsimula ang lahat. May webcam man o wala, mahirap pa ring paniwalaan ang mga sinasabi. Gusto mo man maniwala. Mahirap ng sobra. Guardiyado ang puso. Ayaw masaktan.
Madalas magduda. Pinang-hihinalaan kung nagsasabi ba ng totoo o hindi.
Palaging iniisip kung anong ginagawa kapag hindi ka kausap. Nakakaloka. Nakakabaliw. Palibhasa kasi, nagawa na niya. Siya nga naman, binigyan kasi ng rason para mas lalong mahirapang magtiwala.
Paranoia. Kapraningan.
Hindi lubusang maisip kung bakit nagkakaganito?
Dapat bang maghinala? o Dapat bang magtiwala?
Isa siya sa mga rason kung bakit ako nagalak makarating dito sa Canada. 9 na oras na lang naman kasi ang distansya naming dalawa.
Nine.
Siyam.
Nuebe.
Hindi katulad dati, dose oras. o timezone ba 'yun? Ewan. Basta malabo kasi malayo.
Eh ngayon, mas may chansa ng sa wakas magkita at magkakilala kami... Pero para sa kanya, mahirap pa rin.
Ewan. Ang hirap na talaga magtiwala... Parang ayaw ko ng magtiwala.
Hindi mo malaman kung totoo ba o hindi eh. Ah basta, mahirap.
Kukunin ko na kay Meggie 'yung libro ni Bo Sanchez na "How to Find Your One True Love". Siguro time na para muling ibalik ang atensyon ko sa aking sarili. Ika nga sa job world, "market yourself".
Pero in a good way.
Gusto ko ng bumalik ng Pinas.
Another Tagalog entry. Woohoo!!!
٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶
========================
Oh Max and Moira from Ulink.ca asked me to contact them the other day if I'm interested in working for their company--which is freelancing for Tall Tale Media making portraits and AVPs and community documentaries promoting community businesses in Ontario.
The catch? It's in Waterloo, Ontario.
A mere 2 1/2 hour drive from Brampton.
========================
Something Better
Robot and the Beanstalk
[transcribed by yours truly, niceverdict]
Trying to keep it alive
But there are these doubts I cannot hide
Only saying to me what I wanna hear
You're not being honest with me, I fear
And tell me do you think it's possible
Or is it too far out of my reach
Am i just gonna bring myself down
And look back on my faded dreams
Or is it true?
Could there be something better out there for me?
Could my dream become a reality?
In spite of all those who don't believe me?
I'm wondering if this is right or wrong
If it doesn't make me selfish or out of control
No, stop. And take me seriously
They think I'll grow out of it
But in my heart, it's all that I can see
How do I stop myself from being me?
--------i can't understand the words---------
These words are all I've got
Or is it true?
Could there be something better out there for me?
Could my dream become a reality?
In spite of all those who don't believe me?
==========================
How do I stop myself from being me?