And I thought it was over
I've been such a wreck ever since this last term started. With so many major subjects that needs attending to, I also have one subject that also needs "attending" to.
Upper Batches before me, say that it would be hell to take VIDPROD and INTRORE at the same time. Even my VIDPROD professor, Mr. Groyon told us in class, that we would need luck if we have INTRORE at the same term.
And hell yes, I did have a hell of life living it fully just this last term. I don't think I did have a life. Although I try to meet my "normal" needs in the house--like watching T.V., napping, or just sit and relax, I was not happy. I tried to relax and relax but nothing happened. Problems would just automatically sink right in to my mind and keep me awake not to mention worried all night. I've been in panic mode since this term has started. I started blaming myself for not being used to this kind of stress in highschool. And worse, I started doubting myself.
I started doubting I'll pass this term. I started doubting myself that I will even graduate in time. I started doubting myself that I will land a very decent and good job.
Then, come finals week and I thought I'm done with two subjects and went on doing the other "deadly" two. The deadline for my drama script in RADIPRO was the next day and I was still not done with the characterization and the story itself. And so from 4:30pm the time I got home from school, I went straight to the computer shop with my characterization and type all 8-10 pages of my drama script and 8 pages of my characterization. I have to say that it took me 5 hours to type it all in.
The next day, I went straight to the computer shop and got them to print the script and the characterization. After that I went to my friend's house--Erika's--to use their speakerphone for my interview with Mrs. Gladys Yu for my INTRORE exercise. I stayed 'till 5:00pm and got home. At 6pm From the house, I went straight to the computer shop again, to type all the Pre-Prod documents needed for my final project in VIDPROD. And boy, was that hard!! It is, really!!! I got out of the shop about quarter to 1am. After that, I drew the storyboard and the blocking plots. As for the following day, I went to school to pass the CD(my interview) and the transcription in Ms. Averion's Pigeon-hole, and after that went straight home to shoot the last 2 scenes of my final project in VIDPROD, MY AUTOBIOGRAPH. I finished shooting at about 6pm. I rested in my friend's house, Marj's, to while the time. Then at 7:30 I scootered home to rest. knowing that the next day would be the last day of all my troubles.
THE LAST DAY... or so I thought.
Demmet!! I was so happy that day, because it was the last day. I was done with all 3 major subjects and only 1 more to go. The first thing I did when I got to school was to print out all the pre-prod documents in the computershop in EGI Taft Tower. And Fuck, was the line that long... After waiting... and waiting...and the printing was done. I went back to the editing-bay to edit the last of my video and export it. While it was exporting I was doing my Pre-Prod document the log sheet of the final project. And I did not finished doing itbecause Mr. Groyon went inside the room and let us, his students in for the final screening. He called my name and I handed him my mini-dv tape and the pre-prod documents.
The screening was done and boy, was I so happy!! IT WAS ALL OVER.... ALL OVER...
Last Monday, April 16, Monday morning, I went to school to get the cd's I have left in E-bay. And while waiting for the janitors to open the room (to no avail), I checked my email from the internet for some further announcements from profs and so and so... There was none and so I assumed it was all over...
BUT just a while ago, a message sent from the YM, I received through my phone tells me that we lack the interview consent form needed for INTRORE. I immediately texted Sars about it that we do have an interview consent form, since I read it to Mrs. Yu before the interview started. And so it was okay, I calmed down... And then suddenly, Sars, called me telling me I would flunk INTRORE if I did not do the extra work I have been assigned and the deadline was 3pm, and by that time, it was already 4PM. As soon as I got the message from Sars, I went to the computer shop and did all the extra work I sent an email to Ms. Averion, my INTRORE prof, telling her that I just read her e-mail a while ago and that I couldn't go to schol, since nobody will be left in the house with my two younger brothers. My parents were out and we were the only ones left in the house. And so, I did all of it, sent to her e-mail and printed an output that I will pass to her tomorrow, COURSE CARD DAY....
so much for my fun... fun... life....
hayy.. i wanna die right now....
suicide...
and i don't want to extend my years of suffering in LASALLE.
I'm so frickin' tired.........
Upper Batches before me, say that it would be hell to take VIDPROD and INTRORE at the same time. Even my VIDPROD professor, Mr. Groyon told us in class, that we would need luck if we have INTRORE at the same term.
And hell yes, I did have a hell of life living it fully just this last term. I don't think I did have a life. Although I try to meet my "normal" needs in the house--like watching T.V., napping, or just sit and relax, I was not happy. I tried to relax and relax but nothing happened. Problems would just automatically sink right in to my mind and keep me awake not to mention worried all night. I've been in panic mode since this term has started. I started blaming myself for not being used to this kind of stress in highschool. And worse, I started doubting myself.
I started doubting I'll pass this term. I started doubting myself that I will even graduate in time. I started doubting myself that I will land a very decent and good job.
Then, come finals week and I thought I'm done with two subjects and went on doing the other "deadly" two. The deadline for my drama script in RADIPRO was the next day and I was still not done with the characterization and the story itself. And so from 4:30pm the time I got home from school, I went straight to the computer shop with my characterization and type all 8-10 pages of my drama script and 8 pages of my characterization. I have to say that it took me 5 hours to type it all in.
The next day, I went straight to the computer shop and got them to print the script and the characterization. After that I went to my friend's house--Erika's--to use their speakerphone for my interview with Mrs. Gladys Yu for my INTRORE exercise. I stayed 'till 5:00pm and got home. At 6pm From the house, I went straight to the computer shop again, to type all the Pre-Prod documents needed for my final project in VIDPROD. And boy, was that hard!! It is, really!!! I got out of the shop about quarter to 1am. After that, I drew the storyboard and the blocking plots. As for the following day, I went to school to pass the CD(my interview) and the transcription in Ms. Averion's Pigeon-hole, and after that went straight home to shoot the last 2 scenes of my final project in VIDPROD, MY AUTOBIOGRAPH. I finished shooting at about 6pm. I rested in my friend's house, Marj's, to while the time. Then at 7:30 I scootered home to rest. knowing that the next day would be the last day of all my troubles.
THE LAST DAY... or so I thought.
Demmet!! I was so happy that day, because it was the last day. I was done with all 3 major subjects and only 1 more to go. The first thing I did when I got to school was to print out all the pre-prod documents in the computershop in EGI Taft Tower. And Fuck, was the line that long... After waiting... and waiting...and the printing was done. I went back to the editing-bay to edit the last of my video and export it. While it was exporting I was doing my Pre-Prod document the log sheet of the final project. And I did not finished doing itbecause Mr. Groyon went inside the room and let us, his students in for the final screening. He called my name and I handed him my mini-dv tape and the pre-prod documents.
The screening was done and boy, was I so happy!! IT WAS ALL OVER.... ALL OVER...
Last Monday, April 16, Monday morning, I went to school to get the cd's I have left in E-bay. And while waiting for the janitors to open the room (to no avail), I checked my email from the internet for some further announcements from profs and so and so... There was none and so I assumed it was all over...
BUT just a while ago, a message sent from the YM, I received through my phone tells me that we lack the interview consent form needed for INTRORE. I immediately texted Sars about it that we do have an interview consent form, since I read it to Mrs. Yu before the interview started. And so it was okay, I calmed down... And then suddenly, Sars, called me telling me I would flunk INTRORE if I did not do the extra work I have been assigned and the deadline was 3pm, and by that time, it was already 4PM. As soon as I got the message from Sars, I went to the computer shop and did all the extra work I sent an email to Ms. Averion, my INTRORE prof, telling her that I just read her e-mail a while ago and that I couldn't go to schol, since nobody will be left in the house with my two younger brothers. My parents were out and we were the only ones left in the house. And so, I did all of it, sent to her e-mail and printed an output that I will pass to her tomorrow, COURSE CARD DAY....
so much for my fun... fun... life....
hayy.. i wanna die right now....
suicide...
and i don't want to extend my years of suffering in LASALLE.
I'm so frickin' tired.........