Apr 20, 2005 13:24
i love nothing ne more Nothing loves me so y should i love some one or thing that doesnt love me?? no one can answer that because no one understands me the one person i thought did DOESNT she hatres me now! which suxs ass she wont even tell me what i did wrong i cant say sorry or try to change things IF she wont even tell me what i did right now im so sick of life today is *4*2*0* wow perfect day to kill my self!! 4/20/2005 Laura Dodson dead! she over dosed on pain pills n some other ones it seems like no one misses her so yt should i care? wow so perfected its not like ne one will miss me!! dad noticed cuts were on my arm n he was like whats that from i was like i did it n i dont care n he was like y i said because im worthless to u n every one else he tried to tell me different but its still all a lie to me every one lies to me to make me feel good about my self well it doesnt work ne more so fuck that!!! im sick of every thing every ones lies "o i care about u laura please stop" BULL SHIT u stop lieing to me n maybe some thing will change every day i go by thinking of how much fun it would be to kill my self!! it would be awsome as u see now i hate school i hate my life the only thing i dont hate is my bike my brother dont care dad dioesnt care mom wow mom i dont ever talk to her! so y would she care o wait she dont right now im hating every thing even me of corse i hate my imperfect body n life n soul that no one wants im worthless to every one even *H*I*M*!* i cant hide for ever my feelings most show some time n right its time for them to show unfortinely im waiting for some one to ask me how does it feel for some one to ask u how does it feel to feel unwanted n worthless??? im going to say like this n kill my self that should make every ones lives better with out my shit n them! u may say i need help but I DONT the only help i need is a gun to kill my self I DONT WANT TO GO ON WITH THIS LIFE!!!! Bye