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this is an incoherent ramble to look back on, after looking back on some other incoherent rambles.
'things have been good lately' is no longer enough. i have been constantly happy and okay and brilliant and every known positive adjective under the sun in every aspect of life, everything, constantly, without blips, for well over a month now, and i don't see it changing. i can't even begin to remember the last time that this was the case. even when everything has been fine before there's always been like, something underlying to say 'well i mean even though this is happening...' but there isn't anything like that. it's just.. yeah. i know. i make myself want to vomit. but this is so different for me (a person with a sliiiight tendency to overanalyse and find things to worry about when on the face of it everything is hunky dory) and i can't let it go without writing it down, just for the sake of remembering it later.
the things which make my world go round:
♥ housemates (+ rich). s&r's 'advice' on.. certain matters :D. cakey goodness. see previous entry (it all still stands, but means even more as time goes on)
♥ i got a new job!! - leaving faith was actually really sad, i was properly starting to love it there again but for practicality's sake i had to leave... but i am literally working in the shop next door so it's not like i will never see them again (and last time i went in they gave me cake :D) the new job is in a jewellery store. the people are lovely, the prospects are awesome and it's nice having something different, plus a new group of people to get to know.
♥ faith angels, past and present.
♥ new housemate. penguins. no words. :o) will have to do... ♥
♥ adventures.
♥ parental conversations and proposed visitations (wouldn't you know....)
♥ tidy room (almost), tidier finances...
♥ mel chats in the small hours (yes, i am a melonhead)
♥ wife (always)
♥ stoned evenings in good company with self-deleting (i swear it's not me..!) playlists
♥ the knowledge that i have all of this and no longer have to attempt to change anything about me to fit in with a group of people whose lives continue unchanged whether i am in them or not. and this is not said out of bitterness. i just wasn't the correct piece for their jigsaw puzzle. i think it's mutually beneficial for all concerned, and i am completely okay with it. :o)
.... i'm not sure what more can be said, really. although i'm sure i'll think of more tomorrow... watch this space
x
'things have been good lately' is no longer enough. i have been constantly happy and okay and brilliant and every known positive adjective under the sun in every aspect of life, everything, constantly, without blips, for well over a month now, and i don't see it changing. i can't even begin to remember the last time that this was the case. even when everything has been fine before there's always been like, something underlying to say 'well i mean even though this is happening...' but there isn't anything like that. it's just.. yeah. i know. i make myself want to vomit. but this is so different for me (a person with a sliiiight tendency to overanalyse and find things to worry about when on the face of it everything is hunky dory) and i can't let it go without writing it down, just for the sake of remembering it later.
the things which make my world go round:
♥ housemates (+ rich). s&r's 'advice' on.. certain matters :D. cakey goodness. see previous entry (it all still stands, but means even more as time goes on)
♥ i got a new job!! - leaving faith was actually really sad, i was properly starting to love it there again but for practicality's sake i had to leave... but i am literally working in the shop next door so it's not like i will never see them again (and last time i went in they gave me cake :D) the new job is in a jewellery store. the people are lovely, the prospects are awesome and it's nice having something different, plus a new group of people to get to know.
♥ faith angels, past and present.
♥ new housemate. penguins. no words. :o) will have to do... ♥
♥ adventures.
♥ parental conversations and proposed visitations (wouldn't you know....)
♥ tidy room (almost), tidier finances...
♥ mel chats in the small hours (yes, i am a melonhead)
♥ wife (always)
♥ stoned evenings in good company with self-deleting (i swear it's not me..!) playlists
♥ the knowledge that i have all of this and no longer have to attempt to change anything about me to fit in with a group of people whose lives continue unchanged whether i am in them or not. and this is not said out of bitterness. i just wasn't the correct piece for their jigsaw puzzle. i think it's mutually beneficial for all concerned, and i am completely okay with it. :o)
.... i'm not sure what more can be said, really. although i'm sure i'll think of more tomorrow... watch this space
x