Final Entry.... Ever... For real this time I swear!
So..
I have disbanded with LJ, no more. It is sucking too much of my time and effort away from my idle hands... Which I hear are the devils playground, it's so easy to say something we don't mean to say on these damned things but I really don't worry about it. HELL IS OTHER PEOPLE!
I believe in this statement alot, not only is it the cornerstone of Existentialism it is a good phrase to live by. If we create negativity, that is all we will get in return. I can and will always be ashamed of the things I have done. But what does more good, learning from your mistakes? Or dwelling on them and reminding others of there mistakes and past evils.
I have had an uncanny ability, and I have had it since I was a kid. I can tell when I have been talked about behind my back. I have no idea how I know I just do. I can read the ackwardness and tension in the air whenever I have entered a conversation or room where my infamous name has been uttered behind mine ears.
I don't care much because I never say anything about it.. But it does fucking hurt.
No matter what happens I am still that scared lil' fat kid that keeps getting picked on by everyone.
Sure I get pissed when people talk about me. But it doesn't really rub me raw untill it's about the people I love. When you get them involved not only do I get upset I get fucking insanly angry.
You see on top of the shit talking radar I also have another superpower you may be interested in. I have a blind rage problem. Which basically means once I get pushed over the edge I will do something that not only is waaaaayyy over the top and violent it is also scary.. I've been able to make people cry just by looking at them when I am in this state.
I'm not proud of it, that is just the insane person I am.
So instead of angering me by talking about ones I love behind said parties back I will give you a list of embarrassing things about me you can talk about behind MY back. Instead of theirs.
Thank you.
One time in elementary school I tried getting dressed under a desk to avoid using the bathroom and getting naked. The whole class saw me and I became the laughing stock of the school.
One time at Disneyland I shit my pants. I have no idea why I was way too old to do it. I was just afraid to use the California bathrooms.
If you need more cannon fodder to talk about me, please give me a call and I will give you more.
Thank you.
=t0ny
I have disbanded with LJ, no more. It is sucking too much of my time and effort away from my idle hands... Which I hear are the devils playground, it's so easy to say something we don't mean to say on these damned things but I really don't worry about it. HELL IS OTHER PEOPLE!
I believe in this statement alot, not only is it the cornerstone of Existentialism it is a good phrase to live by. If we create negativity, that is all we will get in return. I can and will always be ashamed of the things I have done. But what does more good, learning from your mistakes? Or dwelling on them and reminding others of there mistakes and past evils.
I have had an uncanny ability, and I have had it since I was a kid. I can tell when I have been talked about behind my back. I have no idea how I know I just do. I can read the ackwardness and tension in the air whenever I have entered a conversation or room where my infamous name has been uttered behind mine ears.
I don't care much because I never say anything about it.. But it does fucking hurt.
No matter what happens I am still that scared lil' fat kid that keeps getting picked on by everyone.
Sure I get pissed when people talk about me. But it doesn't really rub me raw untill it's about the people I love. When you get them involved not only do I get upset I get fucking insanly angry.
You see on top of the shit talking radar I also have another superpower you may be interested in. I have a blind rage problem. Which basically means once I get pushed over the edge I will do something that not only is waaaaayyy over the top and violent it is also scary.. I've been able to make people cry just by looking at them when I am in this state.
I'm not proud of it, that is just the insane person I am.
So instead of angering me by talking about ones I love behind said parties back I will give you a list of embarrassing things about me you can talk about behind MY back. Instead of theirs.
Thank you.
One time in elementary school I tried getting dressed under a desk to avoid using the bathroom and getting naked. The whole class saw me and I became the laughing stock of the school.
One time at Disneyland I shit my pants. I have no idea why I was way too old to do it. I was just afraid to use the California bathrooms.
If you need more cannon fodder to talk about me, please give me a call and I will give you more.
Thank you.
=t0ny