god i hope none of you have a cow

[killer_angel666]

WEll yeah. i know I know they say it's bad for you and I used to do it like all the time.. Like every day.. then I stopped for my x bf then i was going to start again then stopped for rene.. so yeah.. I started smoking again today.. GOd i missed it.. yeah yeah give me all the crap you want about it.. I don't care.. I missed it and I didn't even

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[xsummerbabyx]

oh god...just...I dunno...look basically zaboolbo and midnight_pixie9 said it all...don't mess yourself up rene...you said you don't give a shit about her anymore yet you let her back in your head and mess yourself up...it's not good...just take care of yourself k?
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Kaitlin

[killer_angel666]

holly fucking god.. okay rene is not the cause.. for crying out loud.. I cut myself and bleed myself.. this is an alternative and God.. it's not all about rene.. geesh.. And i do it cuase i'm going to die anyways.. was told that i'm goign to get cancer and the cigs will help with pain and shit.. so it's not about rene.. and my doctor said it won't do anything... okay..

<3 meg

[xsummerbabyx]

omg just don't mess your life up whether it's about rene or not I don't care...believe me I've been through killing myself with the same morals you have and then thought twice about it...look okay my friend she cut herself and one time she was like a third of an inch away from killing herself doing it. She was all happy and crap but inside it was turmoil me and my friend we told a counseler and i don't know she was taken away which got us all scared and then she came back and her life is so much better...her dad killed himself and her step sister died in a car crash...her life was hell...and look okay you haven't been through that...this world is so fucked up...everyone just wants to kill themselves and mess their lives up and where does that leave the rest of us? In our own living hell without the people we love to hold us on the surface before drowning in our own sorrow...there are people here that care about you whether you agree or not there are people who will miss you...okay the only thing I have going is that I know that at

[killer_angel666]

know what your point is. but I chose to do it.. and I'm going to die anyways.. okay my doc said this would help me through it.. cause she knows about me and my medical history. so yeah.. my mom doesnt' know tho cause it would break her heart.. all she knows is that i'm going to die and so is she.. so yeah.. i dont want this to be a big deal anymore.. cuase it's making me feel worse..

meg

[xsummerbabyx]

okay look I'm really sorry for blowing up but I just can't go through this all again
Kaitlin

[killer_angel666]

look.. what do you have to go through with me.. i mean we only talk online it's not like i live there.. i understand that it is hard but i have reasons why i started that i would perfer to keep to myself.. okay.. just know that.. i'll be here longer cuase of it.. hehe.

[xsummerbabyx]

okay okay fine so are we good then?
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Kaitlin

[killer_angel666]

YEs we are good... i just am alittle bitchy at times.. hope i didnt' come off that way tho.. seriously didnt' mean really antying by it.. but yes we are good...

<3 cherry.. everyone is calling me cherry

[xsummerbabyx]

cherry, lol
yeah I get that way a lot too...sorry again k well gotta go to bed...lol
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Kaitlin

[killer_angel666]

Ok.. talk to yo ulater. night night.. love ya..

<3 cherry

[xsummerbabyx]

hey....so wazup with you today? lol
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Kaitlin

[killer_angel666]

I'lll tell you in my newest entry k. ..<3 cherry

[xsummerbabyx]

lol k
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Kaitlin