Masochistic Love Story
Pairing: Jaejoong x Yoochun
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Yoochun loves him too much for his own good
I do not own them.
Nothing hurts more than seeing the one you love look at you with those empty eyes. You'd rather have him look at you with hate, anger or contempt, anything other than nothingness. You'd rather have all those feelings than be faced with him not being able to feel anything for you. At this point anything is better that this. Anything
Even if he looks at you with those eyes-those blank eyes you can't help but stare back. You're searching for something you know you will never find. Not anymore, or was it even there in the first place?
Lying to yourself can only get you so far and you don't know how long you can continue to believe in your own lies.
Song after song that you create only resonates what you feel inside, you dare not call it loneliness because you know what you're feeling right now is worse than that. The songs you make can't even express how you feel or make you stop feeling things you wish didn't exist.
You wish more than anything for him to look at you and only you but that's too much of a farfetched dream. He's here with you but his heart is somewhere else. Though it hurts you know you'd rather have yourself pretend that his heart is yours just like how your heart is and always will be with him. Your heart will never be yours, he owns it now- he will always have it.
Knowing all this you're still stuck here back in square one and you can't budge anymore. You'd rather be with him and hurt yourself than be without him. You're not strong enough to leave him and walk away and a part of you doesn't want to ever walk away.
Even if they tell you that you're only hurting yourself- you shut them out, they don't understand that being without him will completely destroy you or what's left of you. This is the only way you know how to live, you won't have it any other way.
Loving him is the only thing you know how to do.
And you'll keep loving him always and forever.
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Yoochun loves him too much for his own good
I do not own them.
Nothing hurts more than seeing the one you love look at you with those empty eyes. You'd rather have him look at you with hate, anger or contempt, anything other than nothingness. You'd rather have all those feelings than be faced with him not being able to feel anything for you. At this point anything is better that this. Anything
Even if he looks at you with those eyes-those blank eyes you can't help but stare back. You're searching for something you know you will never find. Not anymore, or was it even there in the first place?
Lying to yourself can only get you so far and you don't know how long you can continue to believe in your own lies.
Song after song that you create only resonates what you feel inside, you dare not call it loneliness because you know what you're feeling right now is worse than that. The songs you make can't even express how you feel or make you stop feeling things you wish didn't exist.
You wish more than anything for him to look at you and only you but that's too much of a farfetched dream. He's here with you but his heart is somewhere else. Though it hurts you know you'd rather have yourself pretend that his heart is yours just like how your heart is and always will be with him. Your heart will never be yours, he owns it now- he will always have it.
Knowing all this you're still stuck here back in square one and you can't budge anymore. You'd rather be with him and hurt yourself than be without him. You're not strong enough to leave him and walk away and a part of you doesn't want to ever walk away.
Even if they tell you that you're only hurting yourself- you shut them out, they don't understand that being without him will completely destroy you or what's left of you. This is the only way you know how to live, you won't have it any other way.
Loving him is the only thing you know how to do.
And you'll keep loving him always and forever.