So, essentially my life has been useless this summer....

[kiku_cha8_8]

Ugh, I haven't done anything the last two months or so. My general lack of ambition is really annoying. :/

The last two months consists of:

• Fangirl-ed over Korean boys almost on a daily basis. DBSK and SJ is already a handful. And now I'm starting to warm up to 2PM. Great, another 7 some names to remember
• Pet Society. Neopets on facebook. So addicting. So shameful ><;
• Worked~~, Recon how I hate thee

What I REALLY need to do with my life this summer is:

• Study Chinese >>;
• Clean and tidy room and house
• Schedule my life properly. This includes work hours, school hours, extracurricular activities, not being "chunky"....

I have made a list and a wallpaper reminding myself of my goals for the Summer. But the root of my lack of ambition is I think, ultimately, the lack of companionship. Which is why I spend so much time on Pet Society and fangirling...it's a nice distraction.

Work takes up so much time and I miss seeing people. People my age who DON'T have grandchildren or backaches and who are actually MY AGE. I've already basically lost contact with some of my friends this summer and it's really upsetting because all my efforts to contact them have been met with excuses, brush offs and even nothing. Some aren't even here, and some have practically erased me from their lives. It's already hard enough to hang out with the different schedules, but I really wish they would at least try and stay after class for an hour or two...to hang out. Heck, I even try to finish work early so that we could hang out and I am met with "I don't want to's" and "I want to go home instead's" or nothing. Is one hour really too much? The friends that I have are amazing people, and I ♥ them much, but I just wish I don't have to latch on them so often. I feel like I'm a bother :(

Jackson and Fawcett only made this month seem crappier and I feel even worse whining about my trifles :(

On the good side, I will be able to apply for residency this month!! :D Cheaper tuition is always a cheer up!
Nando Fighting!