four things
1. Cari's friends Noelle and Sean were visiting this weekend. They have these beautiful little dessert sets that Noelle used to make this fantastic French dessert (they just spent two years teaching in France) when Cari had some people over for dinner on Sunday night. Because Cari and Noelle cooked (as I found out later) all day, I cleaned, and I seriously don't think that I have ever taken more care washing anything than I did those dishes. I can't tell if the take away from this is that if I had nice things, I would take care of them (and perhaps, even enjoy taking care of them?) or that I'm clearly not suited to having nice things, since cleaning them seems like an out-of-the-ordinary level of effort.
2. I think that anyone who's seen me breath in the last 6 months has heard me rambling about how I don't think I have any intuition* and relatedly cannot tell the difference between quitting too soon/not putting in the work and beating a dead horse/not moving on. However, when I was cleaning the perfect little dessert dishes, I finally had a history is written by the victors moment. Maybe there isn't a difference?
3. When Tara is not here, I have limited motivation to actually get things done. I think this means I need constant accountability. Also, it probably meant that I will never be a manager, or self-employed. I know you were all holding your breath on that one.
4. After trying to clean this weekend, I have decided to never buy another thing ever.
* Seriously, and this is not a self-pitying thing, but when people talk about "just being sure" or "following their gut" I really am convinced I don't have intuition, because I never feel like that. I like to blame my constant indecision on that :)
2. I think that anyone who's seen me breath in the last 6 months has heard me rambling about how I don't think I have any intuition* and relatedly cannot tell the difference between quitting too soon/not putting in the work and beating a dead horse/not moving on. However, when I was cleaning the perfect little dessert dishes, I finally had a history is written by the victors moment. Maybe there isn't a difference?
3. When Tara is not here, I have limited motivation to actually get things done. I think this means I need constant accountability. Also, it probably meant that I will never be a manager, or self-employed. I know you were all holding your breath on that one.
4. After trying to clean this weekend, I have decided to never buy another thing ever.
* Seriously, and this is not a self-pitying thing, but when people talk about "just being sure" or "following their gut" I really am convinced I don't have intuition, because I never feel like that. I like to blame my constant indecision on that :)