moving on......but not really.
I've been back for 2 weeks now, and nothing feels right.
i had the hardest time leaving my dad's place,the thought of facing the rest of my greif alone scared me.
a part of me thought that removing myself from everyone and everything that reminded me of him would help, but i think it just put things off more. so what should I do??
i want so much to reach out to my old friends, those who were and still are closest to him, but so much has come between us, and this is not the time to play catch up.
seeing Al and Heather in so much pain, just ripped my heart out, these people use to be my world, my family, I still love them, but am no longer clase to them, all thses emotions along with the stabbing greif I felt just made me want to give in, and I have no idea what it was like for you. you who wereclosest to him, you who were intimate with him. My thoughts are never far from you,and maybe soon i'll get up the guts to call or write and maybe in our greif we can rebuild an old bridge.
Alana and Heather,
you know that I love you guys.
and I would do anything for you.
Kailyn
i had the hardest time leaving my dad's place,the thought of facing the rest of my greif alone scared me.
a part of me thought that removing myself from everyone and everything that reminded me of him would help, but i think it just put things off more. so what should I do??
i want so much to reach out to my old friends, those who were and still are closest to him, but so much has come between us, and this is not the time to play catch up.
seeing Al and Heather in so much pain, just ripped my heart out, these people use to be my world, my family, I still love them, but am no longer clase to them, all thses emotions along with the stabbing greif I felt just made me want to give in, and I have no idea what it was like for you. you who wereclosest to him, you who were intimate with him. My thoughts are never far from you,and maybe soon i'll get up the guts to call or write and maybe in our greif we can rebuild an old bridge.
Alana and Heather,
you know that I love you guys.
and I would do anything for you.
Kailyn