unhappy...go figure

my grandmother was taken to the hospital this week. we arent close but the family ramifications are something that scares me. the dont know what was wrong with her and my mother is kind of freaking out. i want to be there for her but i dont really know how, i lack that these days. honestly though...with what else is going on in my life right ( Read more... )

june 18th the starting point, count the hours, attrition, cherem
june 29th attitude, meltdown, learn, w/ more TBA
july 3rd wind of plague, a love ends suicide, w/ more TBA
july 6th set it straight, ruiner, final fight, counting the days, and cool yer jets
july 14th ceremony, lights out, w/ more TBA
july 21st life long tragedy, ( Read more... )

the last week was all i could have asked for. low stress, plenty of quality time. im excited for the things that will come later in life for us. marriage, house, kids...all of it. though not to say that i am in any sort of rush...but i am certainly ready to address the issues as they come at us...one at a time...

i dont think ive ever been so wrung out.

judge ate my x1upx hat.

two of my very good friends are in town for the week from tour, which means full dinner party for my birthday(which is next week)

im growing up

i guess misery trully loves company.

onward to the dog park...

update...

california was full of suprises but all in all probably one of the single most important moves in our relationship. i feel like we have more than just a shot in the dark, and i feel completely secure in hte fact that we are in love...on that note...

i am officially engaged.

im as happy as i could be,,,though it doesnt mean im worry

california in two days...sooooo stoked. its been far too long since i held her.

i miss knowing that someone was as excited about me as i am about them, how did i get to be the one more invested in the relationship. how can those feelins seem to fade. im so in this right now and i feel all alone. it feels like i only get 15 minutes a week of reciprication and taht is just not enough when you want to marry someone. you know ( Read more... )

i never thought something so little and sweet was capable of so much anger and pain. how is it that without warning a conversation can be loving and thouhtful to nothing but pure hatred? maybe i am an asshole, maybe i deserve such words and im just not smart enough to see it. its funny how songs have a whole new meaning to me now, seriously i ( Read more... )