Thoughts.
The past few days, I've been going on a lot of walks by myself. It gives me time to think about my life, where I'm going with it, what I'm doing, and who I am. I've come to realize a few things about myself.
I have and have not let go of the past.
I do and do not have control of the future.
I kick myself every day for the stupid mistakes I've made.
I don't think there is anything I wish I had done.
I know that there are things I definitely shouldn't have done.
I am pretty sure that I'm on track, but I'd like to keep moving.
I wish some things turned out differently.
I always put the most effort in everything, and I'm sick of it.
I can only depend of myself.
I love life, but despise a lot of things in it.
I can find beauty in almost anything.
I wish I could have been born in a different time, a different place.
I push a lot of bad experiences out of my mind.
I believe that there is too much negativity in my life from other people.
I feel so held back here.
I need a job.
I hope he's who I think he is.
I cannot wrap my head around why people act in such cruel and insensitive ways.
I love the small group of people I spend my time with.
I turned into a very honest person because of the liars in my life.
I will never accept failure.
I am going to go somewhere in life; I am going to be who I want to be.
I keep to myself a lot of the time.
I want nothing.
I only fully trust myself.
I really have a picky personality about EVERYTHING (people, movies, food, music, clothes, etc.).
I tend to fall for people who don't have time for me.
I balance my time well.
I HATE how so many people are the same.
So yep, my amp went byebye. I am having the worst luck with my music. Every time I go to record, something goes wrong.
I have been eating completely healthy and exercising for about a week now because I don't like the way I look or feel. I am already starting to notice results, and I am happy.
I have been gradually waking up earlier. I love sunny mornings the most and I've been missing out on them for a while now. Morning is my favorite time of day besides twilight. I like how everything is new and how the sunlight hits the leaves. It looks pretty. :)
I should probably get to bed; Christina is making me a yummy breakfast in the morning, yay! :D Goodnight.
I have and have not let go of the past.
I do and do not have control of the future.
I kick myself every day for the stupid mistakes I've made.
I don't think there is anything I wish I had done.
I know that there are things I definitely shouldn't have done.
I am pretty sure that I'm on track, but I'd like to keep moving.
I wish some things turned out differently.
I always put the most effort in everything, and I'm sick of it.
I can only depend of myself.
I love life, but despise a lot of things in it.
I can find beauty in almost anything.
I wish I could have been born in a different time, a different place.
I push a lot of bad experiences out of my mind.
I believe that there is too much negativity in my life from other people.
I feel so held back here.
I need a job.
I hope he's who I think he is.
I cannot wrap my head around why people act in such cruel and insensitive ways.
I love the small group of people I spend my time with.
I turned into a very honest person because of the liars in my life.
I will never accept failure.
I am going to go somewhere in life; I am going to be who I want to be.
I keep to myself a lot of the time.
I want nothing.
I only fully trust myself.
I really have a picky personality about EVERYTHING (people, movies, food, music, clothes, etc.).
I tend to fall for people who don't have time for me.
I balance my time well.
I HATE how so many people are the same.
So yep, my amp went byebye. I am having the worst luck with my music. Every time I go to record, something goes wrong.
I have been eating completely healthy and exercising for about a week now because I don't like the way I look or feel. I am already starting to notice results, and I am happy.
I have been gradually waking up earlier. I love sunny mornings the most and I've been missing out on them for a while now. Morning is my favorite time of day besides twilight. I like how everything is new and how the sunlight hits the leaves. It looks pretty. :)
I should probably get to bed; Christina is making me a yummy breakfast in the morning, yay! :D Goodnight.