I've been making various attempts to break out of the depressive fugue I've been in for months if not over a year...but without much sustained success
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I have Made Myself Do Things lately, a pulling-myself-up-by-my-bootstraps sort of thing, kind of a self-chivvying "fake it til I make it" kind of affair. It's painful and I hate it, but it seems to be working, at least somewhat as I have run into some rather amazing people synchronicitously/serendipitously, just by showing the hell up, even when it's not convenient (Nothing is convenient. There is no such thing as a good time.) even when I hate it and all involved. Even when I'd rather be jammed under a rock.
Dancing. Some sort of creative physical movement. Sweat it out to some music. Got a hula hoop? Poi? A staff? Shinai? Scarves? Puppets? Kites? Ribbons? A ball? Some sort of prop to interact with, depending on weather, can make it more fun. Playing with breezes with a scarf or kite is fan.tastic. (I was going to ping you on the contact improv stuff you've run into. Ping!) IBEX puppetry has the most amazing toys; I'm going to see if I can replicate some of them.
Water. Go plunk yourself in the creek or in the Springs. Stand in running water and let the funk wash away.
I understand your not wanting to go the psychiatric chem route. The only pharmaceutical interventions that have worked for me are beta blockers (I have an underlying arrythmia that my body interprets as panic; the feedback cycle on that one is ridiculous), xanax and high doses of folate. (Not folic acid.) as in 15 mg / day of prescription folate. Lovely stuff. Part of my several months' problem has been that I ran out of a good brand, and not all of them work well, and therefore I don't take them and. and. and. And by the time I run through a long litany of 'ands', I generally forget that it worked in the first place. Maybe lots of green juices and green leafy veg in general would do something similar? I know that at certain portions of time, I crave chlorphyll (chlorella is good for that, as is the Odwalla verson of Naked's Green Machine, which is too sweet and not algae-ey enough for me.)
Dancing. Some sort of creative physical movement. Sweat it out to some music. Got a hula hoop? Poi? A staff? Shinai? Scarves? Puppets? Kites? Ribbons? A ball? Some sort of prop to interact with, depending on weather, can make it more fun. Playing with breezes with a scarf or kite is fan.tastic. (I was going to ping you on the contact improv stuff you've run into. Ping!) IBEX puppetry has the most amazing toys; I'm going to see if I can replicate some of them.
Water. Go plunk yourself in the creek or in the Springs. Stand in running water and let the funk wash away.
I understand your not wanting to go the psychiatric chem route. The only pharmaceutical interventions that have worked for me are beta blockers (I have an underlying arrythmia that my body interprets as panic; the feedback cycle on that one is ridiculous), xanax and high doses of folate. (Not folic acid.) as in 15 mg / day of prescription folate. Lovely stuff. Part of my several months' problem has been that I ran out of a good brand, and not all of them work well, and therefore I don't take them and. and. and. And by the time I run through a long litany of 'ands', I generally forget that it worked in the first place. Maybe lots of green juices and green leafy veg in general would do something similar? I know that at certain portions of time, I crave chlorphyll (chlorella is good for that, as is the Odwalla verson of Naked's Green Machine, which is too sweet and not algae-ey enough for me.)
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